living the dream

2009-10-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

went to a new blog!!
re-link me!!
http://nottinghamlove.tumblr.com/

2009-10-26T19:59:00.001+08:00

Today is monday...
not really a perfect day...
but its quite alright...
the only thing is just that i have to wake up early just to go to sch and slack for 2hrs...-.-"
lame right?
o well...
hopefully tomorrow will be a great day!! :D:D

*Never put your expectations too high because you will never know when it will come*

2009-10-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

Day check...
Its FRIDAY!!! :D:D

finally its the weekend!!
been waiting for it since don't know when.
haha.
been a really hectic week cause of work everyday.
This is my schedule for this week:

Mon- Had Teambuilding for a Japan group at Sentosa
super tired cause after that went to sch for classes.
Tues- Launch of Social Enterprise week & after that was yvette's b'day!! (BTW happy belated b'day yvette)
Super tired also cause i went there after sch.
Didn't even know how to go there at first too... haha
Wed- Starhub Customer Service Week
Rush there after sch...
Super hot there la...
and i went home with a present... MOSQUITO BITES!!!
Thurs- Shell livewire prize presentation & EDB Basketball
Went there after training.
den after packing up rush to EDB to gather the ppl...
reach there and cant get the bus driver lea... damn sian lo...
but thank goodness after that can find the bus driver...
haha...
followed the bus to bukit timah den rush to pioneer to get my new JACKET!!! :D:D
after dat was suppose to go JP to go see an old friend but seriously too tired le...
so went home...
took a quick bath makan watch a bit of tv show with my bro and mum den go slp liao...
super tired...
today even woke up late lo...
and i mean super late...
haha

*Leaning on the strength of God is so much easier and better den leaning on your own strength*

2009-10-18T05:11:00.000+08:00

My life for what i can say is always like a bumpy hill.

After climbing high, i will always go down a steep slope.

Its just very tiring.

I have always thought that day by day its just difficult to keep your life in tune to your own pace.

Its just difficult to make words come out of your mouth just like that.

Who but you yourself makes the decision.

No one but you.

Definitely its not easy, cause you will never know what the decision brings.

And that is how i feel now also.

As time pass, the stress to continue walking on is very difficult.

Its not just saying it only, but also doing it is the difficult part.

I will never know what to do, what to say or even where to go.

Dryness in my spirit is definitely not helping a single bit.

Its more like the renewing of the spirit which i need in my life to continue walking on in life.

If not my life will just stay stagnant and that will be tiring.

*Its difficult to carry on but nonetheless only after carrying on that you will be able to know where you can go and push the boundaries of the limits*

Freaking Week!!

2009-10-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

Its definitely not my fave schedule of the year...

Everyday end at 5!?

Its like what the crap!!

argh!!

how i wish we had our previous sem schedule..

i wont have anything to complain about then...

o well...

i hope that there will be changes to the schedule or just cancel a few lessons like LPD!!!

its like LPD again??? and its 2 hrs!!

wad the crap!!

argh!!

dont know what the school is thinking!!

grrrr...

*never underestimate the fiery of a women, especially when she's hungry*

A great experience

2009-10-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Today didnt go for svc cause i had to work today at BVSS for a mid-autumn festival...
was quite a success except for a few minor problems like a sudden cut of the sound and audience participation.
But other den that i think it was quite a good event...
learnt alot of stuff like how to set up sound, lights and how everything should be connected...
but i think today is not the most busy day...
cause its just a school outdoor festive event...
i think when its for a prom or D&D that would be a different thing...
like all the corners and places must put tape and everything...
school reopening soon...
hopefully i get a good timetable schedule and that i am still able to work while studying...
that will be really good news for me!! :D:D
well the next few weeks will be packed packed packed with more planning for upcoming events like D&D and Proms...
hopefully i wont get tired out and that i'll have a lot of strength to carry on...
jia you jia you!!

*Thank the Lord in all your ways and He will be there for you*

2009-10-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

blogging now at cathay haha...
waiting for the movie 500 days of summer to start... haha...
its only 1053pm but 1125 is the time that the movie starts...
its like another 30mins to go...
but i'm so tired...
yawn... zzzzz...
o well...
its to celebrate ben ben b'day haha!!
o well will try and blog when i get home ltr...

*Making the difference in someone's life is very much more significant than causing doing something good daily*

The first time

2009-10-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

There was never once where I forgot how I felt when i saw you.
For there was never once I could forget how you made me feel.
And there was never a moment where I will not know of how I can forget all about what you have done for me.
There is never a chance to know you again for the first time.

Went out with mummy today.
Had a good dinner.
Didn't really feel too well though for today....
Super...
Argh...
O well tml is a new week and also a new day.

*An opportunity is given every single day*

The feelings you make me feel.

2009-10-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

Never felt like this before.
The sudden make shift feeling.
The feeling where nothing else seem to matter.
Talking in winding ways trying hard not to make any sense.
But know in the heart,
Still wishing for people to understand.
And even after the washing of tears,
There was never once the feelings pass.
But now i know that the feelings can never be,
Without the cause of you.

Friends i can never forget

2009-10-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

Remembering the time spent as friends, as family, as loved ones.
Brings not only smiles but different emotion.
Remembering the time spent going out together, making fun of each other, shopping together.
It makes and is still making differences in my life.
Remembering the moments spent together looking at fireworks, gigs playing, movies together.
Makes forgetting memories difficult.
Remembering the sounds of laughter, sights of smile, clapping of hands.
Never can leave my mind.

These has all became a part of my life and will always still be in my mind as the people who gave me one more reason to love and to be loving.
These are times where they have been with me and are still going to go through with me.
These are people who will never leave me because they are my friends who are close to me.
They are the people who i call Friends.

After some time!!

2009-09-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

Its been very long since i last posted...
and i mean very long!!
argh!!
well for the past few weeks and days been going through lots of stuff...
for example BLTC

BLTC is like the best training course i have ever been to!!
its really good...
i feel refreshed and knowing more of how god wans me to grow in usher ministry and also in church...
it is really a very good experience

another thing i went through this past few days was my b'day!!
i felt super loved on the day itself!!
was suppose to meet denise and the peeps with jon t. only but in the end jacq and the rest came too!!!
i was like shocked!!
in the end cal, doug and dennise came too!!
was like super duper doped juz before we left...
dont noe how much i drank but all i noe was i felt light headed haha!!
but i still spend my happieset time for my b'day on dat day!!
althought i have said it to them alot of times!!
but really wanna thank them cause they really are my greatest of fwens!!

work wise been doing quite okay...
learning while working at the same time...
this coming few weeks though will be a very stretched weeks and mths for me...
lots of events coming up and school's starting real soon...
argh!!
o well i guess its all the works of life bah...

*Making time for God and for the People *

You

2009-09-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

There was never a time where i forgot
There was never a time where i didn't miss
There was never a time where i didn't make a mistake
There was never a time where i have not given without taking back

And for you this were time where i would never want to lose.

This week is just busy busy busy.
Gonna have an event whereby the company will be bringing a group of uni grad's around Singapore.
O man i'm like gonna be so very tired...
But its 2 more day to my b'day!! :D:D

*Never live in regret cause regrets make more regrets*

The reason to have you

2009-09-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

Standing at the door, there's no one answering the knock.
Standing by the phone, there's no one answering the question.
Standing next to you, the smile isn't there.
But no matter what, i will still be there for you.

okay now the load for work is getting more more and more.
must jia you esther!!
cant wait too for nx week cause there will be an event starting from tues??
hehe...
all the way to sat...
sadded that i may not be able to go for svc on sat...

*Making the time for everyone is what i believe that is very impt*

New life

2009-09-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

As new life begins, Some ends.
As new life starts, Some stops.
As new life breathes, Some don't.
So as life goes forward, what will we choose?
The way to make life meaningful will be through the path that we choose.

Today was the second day of work.
Kinda alright, but i guess you can say that everything is starting to pile in a sense.
Lots of admin stuff to do, it takes time to get the hang of it but i believe its do able.
Well will continue to lean on God for strength and wisdom to go through the daily works.
He's the one that gave me this opportunity to work in this job and i hope that i will do a good job in it.

*Stars Shine Brightly As One Smiles With Love*

First Day

2009-09-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today was the first day of work and i can say that i really thank God for the job which he has provided for me in the company which i am in now.
As a newbie in the events industry, there is certainly many things to learn but first of all is of course to learn bout the company which i am in right now first.
And just to learn about the company is rather interesting in a sense.
And to my surprise i really get to put to use what i have learnt in ITE (which i am still currently studying in right now).
Its also really fun to get to know the people who u are going to work with in the company.
Well tml will be another day of work and another day to know the people around me more.
And before i end i still have to say this, God really provides to those who needs Him.

*Think before you do, cause you may not get the chance to regret*

The Good News

2009-09-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

Have really good news!!
And the good news is that i got the JOB!! woohoo!!
I mean seriously thank God for his blessing for the job!!
Didnt really thought i will make it cause the other ppl were veyr good too.
But i really thank God for everything that has happened.

Today on another hand i went to comex IT fair at suntec with denise.
went to look around and i saw the Mac Book.
Was really cool and i know that it is really good.
Hopefully i will be able to get it.
Also saw like the cannon 500D.
Really really cool too!! argh!!
Really want to buy but my pocket dont allow.
Will get it soon i know!! argh!! but when??
Well after that went to have like dinner with denise saw celes, mel and ah lian. haha.
I mean bryan.
haha.
Went to meet up with melv and leo after to go to esplanade to watch live performances by Audiocean and West Grand Boulevard!!
SUPER COOL!! I mean seriously!!
The lead singer for WGB was sooooo cute!!
hehe. And yvette will definately agree!! haha!!
Took a few pics while they were playing.
And manage to take a few grp pics with WGB after their performances.
They are all so nice!!
hehe.
Wanted to take individual pics but shy haha.
Well after that was home sweet home. :):)

*The Scream Of Joy Is Always Better Than The Tears Of Sorrow*

finally a day of freedom!!

2009-09-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

Finally the day has come!!
my holidays are here!!
woohoo!!
for the past few days been mugging for the exams and i thank God for bringing me through and for blessing me through out the week...
He blessed me with 2 new shoes through my big bro and sis-in-law.
really thank God, cause i was just in need of new shoes!!
and also God have really opened doors for me..
i got a call to say that i was choosen for the final interview for the job offer at Simei ITE for an events company!!
woohoo!!
i am seriously over the mooon!! haha!!
and now my holidays are here!!
no one can get anything better than this!! and i like this feeling!!
hehe!!

*Time passes but God stays through out*

the final confirmation

2009-09-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

got a confirmation on being one of the few going to the final interview.
really happy and excited!!
haha...
cant wait for the final results to everything!!
hehe...
went out with the section ppl also today to minds cafe.
was an enjoyable time with them!

*Excitement brings along lots of joy*

Movie: The proposal

2009-09-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

Went to watch the propsal with jon, yvette and yvette's fwen.
was a nice show not bad.
nearly cried and i dont really know why cause its just a romance COMEDY
haha
seriously!! haha
anyway after that we went for dinner den actually wanted to come home but in the end we went and have ice cream at gelare (dont noe if correct spelling or not) at orchad central
walked like all the way up den come down cause yvette went the wrong way
after which we sat down and had WAFFLE ICE CREAM for 1/2 price!!
muhaha!!
enjoyed it seriously alot!! haha!!
after that we made our way home

*the truth is nvr easy*

The Life's Path

2009-08-30T02:13:00.002+08:00

The Life's Path is neither straight nor crooked

Its just filled with obstacles for us to climb through

Its just filled with paths that leads to different directions at different junctions

Its just filled with different opportunities

Its just filled with different problems different valleys

However in The Life's Path, we only have one destination

No matter what we choose in life

No matter what turns we take

No matter which direction we go

No matter what opportunities we choose

No matter which problems or valleys we walk through

We will reach to our destination.

I've never thought in live how much we can live it through.

But only through going through the losing of a loved.

That i know how much life's path may end at a different turn.

I've never thought of how long i will live or how long my path will end.

But I only know that in my life, i can only continue on walking on The Life's Path.

*The life of one is different from the other but the only similarity, is the destination)

2009-08-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

suppose to update ytd bout the tab day event which was held ytd...
all i can say about it was that it was a resounding success!!
haha!!
very happy bout and appreciate how much everyone put in to make the event a success!!
go ISR!!
and now we are on our final lap for our term...
in 2 weeks time we will be having our exams!!
and i am only left with 14 days to study for it... (if include today is around 18...)
i have to give it my all to be able to get good grades...

well that was for ytd...
today i went to see a chi doc to take a look at my thumb which i accidentally dislocated it on mon...
and now my whole hand is wrapped up like a turtle...
haha!!
i cant even hold a pen properly now...
sians...
well hopefully after i take it out tml it'll be better!!
hehe!
:):)

*the hopeless gives up hope at the start but the hopefuls pushes on the hope*

Studying!! :D:D

2009-08-23T23:41:00.001+08:00

Yeah!
today is a studying day!!
haha!!
studied like 5 hrs today...
studied with sisca at seragoon garden for like 4 hrs...
very fruitful haha!!
den another 1 hr with the lims haha!!
didnt really study alot lo cause keep toking haha!!
had a great dinner with mummy too!!

*Now its the time to stand and be together in spirit*

Wads happening??

2009-08-21T20:34:00.002+08:00

i tink i dont noe wad is going on with my blog...

weird ppl are like coming to my blog and tagging!!

why is this happening sia!!

*The strengthen in which i lean on is on God*

The possible JOB!!!

2009-08-20T23:00:00.001+08:00

Mood: Happy!!
Reason: Cause i had a great interview today.

haha!!
i am seriously like hyper today...
haha!!
cause i'm just seriously happy!!
hehe...
went for interview today and it went very well!!
haha...
but still dont know the results yet though...
but i know that God will bless me and that i am able to get the job!!
GO ESTHER GO!!

*God will bless*

Finally back!!

2009-08-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

YEAH!!
i can finally blog liao le!!
so long since i lasted blogged!!
haha!!

well this pass few days have been great...
been busy in school doing on the event...
TAB day!!
woohoo!!
its like happening nx tues and we are like rehearsing and stuff!!
haha!!
all the best ISR!!
woohoo!!

for school wise...
really believe that God will really help me in my studies
cause exams are really coming soon and i've not started with my studying yet...
anyone wanna study muz come find me k!!
haha!!

for church wise...
was given a new post for the previous duty and i really felt dat i could have done much much better...
really hope that for the coming duty it can be done soooooo much better!!
den for last week helped grp 1 for the svc...
the svc was really packed with people and it was really fun serving when there is so many ppl...
juz dont like wearing formal haha!!
manage to join cg for fellowship though...
been long since i last fellowshipped with them haha...
had a nice talk too.. haha!

all i can say now is all the best for the next few days...
ps: pray for me cause i'm going for a job interview on thurs!!

*life as it seems is just different in different ways*

A possible chance for a job!!

2009-08-11T16:13:00.002+08:00

YEAH!!
"Esther has scored a touchdown!!!"
I manage to have a 2nd interview for a job in an event's company...
YEAH!!
i'm so very happy!!
its like finally a job...
really pray and hope that i will be able to get the job!!

*Faith is things hope for and the things not seen*

The new days,,,

2009-08-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

Stayed up ytd to play mah jong with jon, melv, leo, lena and jacq...
super tired...
was suppose to wake up at like 6 to go for pm...
but in the end woke up at like 645...
had to rush there las...
anyway now i'm really tired...
will update once i have the energy!!

*New days come and go like how old days come by the next day*

A new Look

2009-08-07T00:12:00.005+08:00

went to dye my hair today at tamp...
like the color alot and of course the hair cut!!
u can say its rather me!!!
haha!!
tried to look like a rocker but failed haha!!
but really liked it a whole lot!!
Thanks to the people at Twister!!

*Letting the heavens open through our hearts*

FOP DAY 2

2009-08-02T02:12:00.003+08:00

Today was another day at SIS for FOP svc 2...
well the number of people that were suppose to come were not as many as it was suppose to be...
but in all i tink it was still a great svc...
the atmosphere was there...
i tink everyone really expected God to be there in their mist....
All though i kinda twisted my ankle abit...
it was quite a pain to walk up and down the steps with that pain...
more over running up and down with it...
one more thing that happen to me really made me think of the attitude we should have while serving...
how we should understand each other without feeling hurt when people are actually not doing it...
anyway i hope there wont be any misunderstanding in between me and the usher...
(All's well)

Well tml will be a great day(in which i mean another 3-4 hrs more)
we will be celebratin City Harvest Church 20th birthday!!
Its so exciting!!
haha!!
cant wait to the number of people that will be coming with all the balloons and excitements!!
It will be a great and wonderful time as Pst Kong will be sharing bout what will happen in City Harvest Church 20 years from now!!
It would be another great milestone for City Harvest in which i feel will bring us to another level!!

*A milestone now was a milestone for the past generation*

Festival Of Praise

2009-08-01T01:01:00.003+08:00

Today was the first day of FOP!!
woohoo!!
was very nice!!
o yeah!!
haha!!
another 2 more days left!!
yeah!!
but i tink will be very tired!!
cant wait till anni though!!
jia you!!

*Timing is everything to the possible zero*

Being Tired...

2009-07-30T04:01:00.004+08:00

Its now 4:01am...
and i'm still awake...
i dont tink i can slp now already...
cause if i was to do that u wont be seeing me in class...
haha!!
anyway went to eat BKT with samantha today after she shocked me when she called me ytd...
haha in class...
haha!!
den met up with the usuals for a little chilling at some place near bugis haha...
dont really noe wer it is...
reached home at bout 12+ to rush out the project...
spent 2 to 3 hrs trying to dl youtube vids and putting it into the ppt...
argh!!
anyway its done!!
woohoo!!
haha...
o crap...
i'm like getting hyper...
i noe i should get some slp cause FOP is coming but...
o man...
its like another 4 to 5 hrs ltr i have to wake up...
so like wad for can...
haha!!
and like my maid will be waking up like in 1 hrs time haha!!
i tink she'll be shocked if she see me still awake haha!!

o well alittle update for ytd...
went out with jacq, jon, jolin, ay, gaius for ice cream at PS...
was suppose to go Gelare but no more waffle ice cream...
den ay was hungry so we made our way to the food court first to fill our stomach...
haha!!
den after that was waffle ice cream!!
woohoo!!
had alot of fun!!
haha!!
and i also found out that i'm quite good in math!!
haha!!
:D:D

*Rom 2:13 -For merely listening to the law doesn't make us right with God. It is obeying the law that makes us right in his sight.*

The pain after a swim...

2009-07-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

juz came back not long from seeing a doc...
pulled like my muscle while swimming ytd and now it started to pain...
is like wad the crap...
o well ate my meds and now i'm gonna watch my fave show!!
woohoo!!

*the time spent and the time meant are similar*

the day of losing fats!!

2009-07-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

yahoo!!
went swimming with sisca today...
swam like 11-13 laps today!!
very happy!!
finally swimming!!
haha...
but its like after dat i ate KFC which is kinda like wasting the time at swimming...
haha!!
now there also another problem...
my project aint going that smoothly...
cause the project is being super downsize...
o God!
help me!!

*the meeting of the right one is during the love at first sight*

Adding of pounds!!

2009-07-26T00:51:00.002+08:00

OMG... i'm like so gonna gain alot of freaking pounds!!
ate seoul garden with the classies on fri den had jap food like 2 hrs after...
den juz now ate manhatten fish market...
woo hoo!!
i am so gonna be fat soon...
nvm i'll be going swimming with sisca tml...
gonna shake off that fats!!
woo hoo!!

*the fire burning in my hands will be passed down to others*

the times!!

2009-07-23T22:28:00.002+08:00

Time Flys, when you are near
Time Runs, when you are away
Time Walks, when you miss you
Time Crawls, when you walk away

i'm just practically bored out at home...
been doing the same thing over and over again...
and i seriously need to find a new job!! argh!!
i'm broke like everyday... :( :(
i also need a new hobby...
other than slacking at home...

*Courage is not by words but by actions*

Words in my mind

2009-07-22T21:46:00.003+08:00

What's Time Spent?
What's Life Made?
What's Love Paid?
What's Family Gone?
What's Friends Done?

time and time again stories are being told...
time and time again memories are being shattered...
time and time again love are being longed...

The Past, Present , Future

2009-07-17T22:40:00.003+08:00

yesterday is just a past...
today is just a new beginning...
tomorrow is just a new experience...
future is just a reason to live...

today was just a normal day...
went to school den after dat went to swim with nic, denise, alex at melv's condo there...
was quite okay las... haha...
this past few days was just a new experience an encounter for me los...
nvr thought that my days will be so "exciting"
now having a stupid cold somemore...
argh!!!
o well now i shall go rest...
tml need to serve duty... serving at delta 1...
woohoo!!
thats a new position...
cause like never serve there before...
haha...
hopefully everything goes well!!

*love never makes a world of your own*

Normal Day!

2009-07-12T23:18:00.003+08:00

today was a normal day i guess...
woke up like at around 11+ didnt know what to do...
had an early lunch late breakfast...
after that just slacked at home los...
now just returned home from dinner with my section's leaders.
was a good one cause i learnt alot too!!
haha...
had our section meeting on the spot instead of next week...
haha...
well i'm kinda tired now but need to rush out a project...
so i'm gonna finish that and hit the sack...

*Quote: "The bitterness of a diseased man learns the sweetness of health"*

going around in my head

2009-07-12T00:08:00.003+08:00

alright i have seriously no idea what my head is thinking...
my heads been spinning round and round and round...
i feel like i'm like a dog thats chasing after its own tail...
ROFL!!! >.< style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">*Faith is the hidden support in all our souls*

2009-07-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!
today went to watch Obsessed with adrian kor!!
and it was sooo good!!
the plot and everything is good...
den today also went to cut hair...
i wont say that its very short... but its at a length which i like now haha...
but i tink i will wan to dye my hair once more...
reddish brown will still be the color but more reddish bah...
haha!!
we will see.

*the use of many smiles is to bring more smiles to others*

2009-07-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

Knowing you
knowing that you left me
made me cry
knowing that you hate me
had me broken
knowing that you will leave me
left me with no words to speak
but knowing that you still love me
gave me a chance to smile

back from watching transformer 2 again with leo, jon and jacqq.
was a nice movie... but kinda boring since i know the whole thing already...
haha...
well the movie is quite nice but the story line is rather dead...
the effects and everything was really good...
but the plot was kinda so so only...
well tml is another movie with the school peeps!!
watching Ice Age 3 (3D) tml...
hope it will be good...
mr leo say is not good but o well....
everyone has different opinions on stuff... haha!!
well so tml i will tell u more chows people!!

*Life even as fragile as it seems it also has its tough side which is the love for the people around us*

2009-07-01T21:40:00.008+08:00

now is the 3rd day of quarantine...
i'm getting bored to death!! OMG!!
haha...
been trying to blog but i didn't manage to open the page...
o well...
now all i can say is my days of hols are well spent in Batam with the kids.
as u guys know...
all the pics which i have are in fb...
there are juz too many le...
but i'll juz put a few here bah...
enjoy!!

Cam Whore in the lift!!

One of the cutie which i was attached to...
he was very cute... very nice... was very friendly too...
he made me cry too when it was on the last day...

the girls in the orphanage also

another cutie!!

Umi the founder of the orphanage... she's already 77 years old but she is still passionate about the kids and to provide them with good education

Also another cutie... his smile was juz cute... and his laughter also!!

this cutie looks like a mix blood...
super handsome!! haha!!
"fell in love" with him u noe!! argh!!

the hardworking cement "banglahs"

our cam whore in the room!!

Ready to go at Harbour front... but very tired... *yawns*

the group which i've worked with for 10days!!! and they are the greatest!! woo hoo!!!

the hotel lobby!!

the hotel lobby!!

the hotel lobby!!

all right thats all!!
all other pics are at my fb!!
go check out den!!

*the appreciation of others is much better than just appreciation of self, but there is still a need to be appreciative of self*

back from batam!!

2009-06-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK!!
haha!!
WOO HOO!!
there's really too many photos and things to update los haha!!
if u really wanna know i will tell u face to face better haha!!
pics also will be better cause it speaks a thousand words haha!!
so check out my photos at my fb k??
hehe

2009-06-12T13:29:00.002+08:00

wanted to update ytd...
but didnt noe why cant even load the page...
dots...
haha anyway ytd was like very tiring los haha!!
went out with denise & meen yi...
went to BKT to take pay and treat them eat...
lols!!
den they suan me some more wor...
dots los...
den also very suay...
walk a bit den my shoe break... =.="
damn suay los!!
haiz...
after eating made our way to selegie for pool time!!
haha!!
super funny las!
met stacy also for some pool game...
after dat go bugis....
buy some clothes...
den....
go find denise the baby...
haha!!
so ytd...
walk from doby to bugis den from bugis walk to suntec...
diao los...
super tired lea...
rawr!!!

*i love the smiles which you give*

2009-06-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

countdown!! haha!!
fri is a school hol for me!!
woo hoo!!
yeah yeah yeah!!
haha!!

today was also my last day of work...
quite sad that i had to leave the place but i wish to focus on my studies and i also wish to have a new working environment...
although got quite alot of ppl think that i am stupid for changing a job after a pay rise...
i felt very empty in the inside for the past few mths...
i jus felt that its really time to change los...
but really thank god for wei fang who encouraged me.
i hope all will go better...

and its another 5 more days to BATAM!!
wa haha!!
omg!!
cant wait le wor!! (:(:
o yeah o yeah!!

*the smallest smile can make any life seem easier*

2009-06-08T01:32:00.002+08:00

"The cost of a new love is never replaceable."

today i'm juz tired...
and i dont noe at the time of 1:32am that i am still awake...
i tink i'm juz losing my senses!!
argh!!
i'm juz so tired...
i guess i can only blame myself for being dumb...
haiz...
tml is another busy day...
i need to wake up in another 4 hrs time...
den i go for morn pm, come back home, go to sch, go for a meeting in sch, come back home...
continue to do my project den slp...
o well...
i guess my life is juz like dat...
haiz!!

*pick the pressure not the pressure pick you*

2009-06-06T02:53:00.002+08:00

There's Been A Cry That Have Not Been Heard
There's Been A Shout That Was Drowned Out
There's Been A Sob With No Tears Rolling Down
There's Been A Feeling That Was Never Known

*Knowing the feelings which hurt on the inside*

2009-06-05T01:00:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda irritated abit by someone...
most of them noe... but o well...
juz hope the project will go well still...
like what i said in the previous post...

*Friendship lasts forever*

2009-06-04T01:16:00.003+08:00

thank goodness that everything is going back to how it should be...
i dont wish to go through what i went through during my sec school...
thats just to scary...
haiz...
just hope everything will go well and that friendships between each other will go well too!!

*Friendships are hard to find and hard to maintain*

2009-06-03T00:00:00.001+08:00

the night is still young!!
haha!!
thats what i'm trying to make myself think right now...
OMG!!
haha...
so tired las...
when i see my bed i feel like slping already...
hopefully i can slp soon haha...

*know your limit and overcome it*

2009-05-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

i'm juz tired now adays...
i really need to rest liao...
haiz...
but now adays got a lot of projects piling up...
and also will be going on the CIP trip...
there's alot of stuff to take note and stuff...
hopefully i can take it bah...
jia you!!

*the trust has to be built after a very long time, but it can be broken down in one nite*

2009-05-27T02:11:00.002+08:00

okay today is a very... "painful" day...
haha!!
reason is because today i went for my jab...
the second jab was just painful!!
cause the needle was thicker den the normal thin needle...
painful!! X( X(
haha!!
well after getting the jab...
juz slack at the place...
den waited for the teachers turn to take the jab...
haha!!
den we all crowd around the place...
like paparazzi like dat.. haha!!
well after dat rush for work los..
now going to slp le...
dont really noe y i wan to slp at like 2:15 like dat...
i guess i muz be dumb!!
HAHA!!

*24 hrs is not for you to worry bout the next 24 hrs but its for you to enjoy it*

2009-05-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

first of all...
definitely have to save about the stupid weather!!
its so hot and humid las!! argh!!

anyway for today went to leo's house to play...
haha!!
quite fun las haha!!
played Indian poker and stuff...
dem play water retention game...
super fun!!
haha!!
although didnt play very long... haha!!
after that went to do some random stuff.. haha!!
now juz feeling super duper tired...
haha...
gonna juz chill now haha!!

*Making The Possible Possible*

2009-05-24T03:55:00.003+08:00

~THE MEANING OF LOVE~
Its Just Story Telling...
Its Just A Lie...
Its Just A Reason...
But It Will Never Be Good Enough...
Because Love Is Never A Story...
Its A Legend That Last Forever...
Because Love Is Never A Lie...
Its A Truth That One Tells Another...
Because Love Is Never Just A Reason...
Its A Lifetime Commitment...

currently now at 4:00am...
i'm at my fwens house using her lappy...
reason why i'm at her house is because i went to celebrate with her fwens her birthday...
haha!!
so now i cant sleep cause i'm alittle too hyper already.. haha!!
with ice cream and alcohol in my tummy.. haha!!
so now i'm practically wide awake.. haha!!
but tml i'm like gonna work... so hopefully i will have the energy and stuff tml to work...

anyway for today i tink it was just a power pack svc!!
it was Rev. Mike Connell!!
Woohooo!!!
although for his svc there wasn't much of a sermon but it was still a great svc full of God's power!!
before the preaching started he started to prophersy on quite a few people...
it was really amazing...
after like maybe 15-20mins he started to preach...
and rite after preaching he started the same thing...
this time it was really... WOW!!!
he picked one of the usher's that was sitting at the front he prayed on her and she recieved the blessing...
but the best is at the last!!!
after recieving the anoiting.. she actually passed it on to others...
it was really amazing at how God's power dont only pass through the preacher but also through us...
after this amazing blessings he gave an alter call for new fwens to recieve christ...
after the alter call he made another altar call for people who wanted to be prayed for..
i went forward wanting the anoiting of God to flow through me...
it was really another... WOW!!!
i didnt noe that i can feel God this way...
i was really touched by the power of God...
it was really amazing!!
i juz cried and cried and cried...
den i scream and scream and scream...
it was really awesome to do these...
i mean...
after it i felt very released...
really thank God for it!!
praise the Lord!!

*Its never about the finishing line but its about getting there*

2009-05-23T00:14:00.000+08:00

The Time Has Said It's Piece...
It's Time To Make The Choice...

*Time waits for no one*

2009-05-20T00:09:00.001+08:00

i've had it with yur calls and msges...
can u stop doing it...
it's pissing me off...
i dont even know u and the reason why i gave u the num is cause u are my fwens fwen...
but now i regret!!
just get off my back will u!!
stop msging or even calling!!

*its a fact that fwens last forever*

2009-05-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

never underestimate what a smile can bring...

*the truth of a smile beats anything thats ever to be done*

2009-05-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

2 days never post le...
past 2 days was just as per normal..
just that for ytd it was DR. KIM who came to our church!!
haha...
it was super great!!
the songs the piano the sermon...
was super!!

today was also kinda of a nuaing day...
cause i today was actually having a slight fever in the afternoon...
rested awhile and it subsided...
went to see a doc...
doc say tml can go school still... so thank God...
but he said today cannot go work...
so very sian...
cause actually wan take pay wan so nvm...
in the end went out with the usher ppl...
got jacq, lena, leo, jon, me, jolin...
went to eat at just noodles after walking for very long in wedges...
haha...
after that all went home liao...
haha!! funny rite!!
come out eat den go home liao...
haha!!

*the source of wisdom can only come from God and by instinct*

2009-05-14T00:25:00.002+08:00

1 good news!!
i have been chosen to go to the batam CIP trip from the 15th of june to the 28th of june..
its for 2 weeks!!
really happy cause its going to be a good experience and also we are going some thing like a class... haha!!
very cool...
but one bad thing is i have to miss 2 session of the Songs of Solomon... :(:(
and miss 2 svc...
sads!!!

*life has its ups and downs*

2009-05-13T00:35:00.001+08:00

What's the reason for everything??
What's the reason for being??
What's the reason for staying??

*dreams are there because of your visions*

2009-05-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

its just difficult to make the choice...
i know that i need to make the decision...
but i don't know what to chose...
i only know that i don't really want it to be this way...
i just need a time off...
maybe i should stop thinking for the time being...
i think it'll be good...

*time has made my heart grow weary but the smile of friends has always been there*

2009-05-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

todays been quite tiring...
woke up at 8 cause my hse the electrical switch jumped...
den went back to slp...
woke up at 11...
the rest of the day is just nuaing at home..
den go to work...
haha...
but today got some other stuff...
met up with, jacq, jon tan and leo goh...
they came eat bkt... den we went to river side there sit and eat ice cream!!
finally my craving is met...
but still craving for ice cream... more like waffle ice cream!!
argh!!!
haha... anyway after dat went to meet up with serene and yi ming for a short while at hougang...
managed to hang around there for like 10-15 mins den need to go liao... if not no bus...
but in the end i missed my last bus -.-"
haiz...
den took cab home los...
thank God got serene lea...
lend me some money to take cab home if not i will have to walk home...
love ya serene!! <3<3

*fwens are hard to find*

2009-05-10T01:07:00.002+08:00

a big shout out to all mothers: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

you guys are just the best!!
being there for us and helping us cook food and soup!!
i love you mummy!!

*mum's are the best in the whole wide world!!*

2009-05-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

my life is still in a spin...
but at least i kinda know what caused it to spin...
i'm making plans but i not sure if it will work...
i wan to stop my world from spinning but i need to stop spinning it myself dats wad i know...
but...
i'm still very afraid of changes...
changes of friends...
changes of the environment...
the thought of it can actually scare me...
its seriously scary...
i know a change will be good...
but i'm still scared....

*what does change really bring??*

2009-05-07T23:02:00.002+08:00

first all thanks to all the peeps for all your encouragement!!
i appreciate it alot alot...
although i've thought it for very long i'm still in a process of tinking more...
so if i emo when i'm with you guys plz understand...
thanks lots still!! :):)

*every single love is always appreciated*

2009-05-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

i'm still puzzled with where my life will head to...
i starting to feel very tired now...
not knowing what i'm doing...
where i'm going...
its just i feel boxed...
very compacted, quiet, alone...
i know alone is a wrong word to choose but i just dont know whats going on with me...
i can just walk home from the bus stop and cant stop thinking what am i seriously doing...
i feel like i'm going in a round and round about...
circles and circles i'm drawing...
i just want to shout : WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING!!!
its just so...................frustrating that i dont know what in the world i'm doing with my life...
yea i have goals, yea i know what i want to do but...
thats the future...
i want to know what am i doing with my life now!!

*theres a reason for anything but when can we find that reason??*

2009-05-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

alrite...
sorry for not posting stuff for so long.. haha
was just tired to start with... didnt really know why i was so tired...
but for the past few days have really been wondering what i am doing with my life now...
am i really on the right path or have i ever started going on the right path...
its like whenever i turn around i feel alone...
yes i know that there are always people with me, supporting me, standing behind me...
but i still feel emptyness inside of my heart...
i dont really know why but maybe its just weirdness... or maybe its cause i'm losing my head...
i always believe that what ever i have choosen is always for the future...
and that the reason why i made the decision was because God showed me the way and that the support i got from my fwens and family...
i guess you will have to give me some more time to think...
let me tell you in further days ahead...

for what i have done for the past few days was quite the same...
haha..
school on friday then work...
but after work was actually thinking of going for dinner/supper with serene after our work at chomp chomp...
but in the end went and meet up with Bryan, Farhan and one of Bryan's Max Tune fwen (didnt manage to remember his name)...
haha...
serene went home alittle earlier to finish her home work...
i guess she's kinda stress out with her school work and stuff...
just here to say: ALL THE BEST SERENE!!
after awhile they were like thinking of going to some where else for L4D but not intrested and just nice the train arrived so i went home los haha!! :D:D
very tired though when i reach home...
bath and use the com to print some of the usher stuff before going to sleep...

sat was quite tiring too...
cause needed to buy food for refreshment for ushers...
met up with leo(who was late) at AMK interchange to go to Expo for usher meeting...
was like 5 mins late los...
sians...
i shall make it my goal to reach early next time... (AMEN!!)
had the meeting then started to do support...
wasn't really feeling well though...
was a girl thing.. haha!!
but after awhile was feeling better... (THANK GOD!!)
was doing Echo 2 for i think 3rd time...
opened the black cloth for the 2nd time too...
i really feel that CHC is really going to the next level cause we are really growing now...
after svc was a debriefing session with the leaders...
was quite good cause i manage to learn alot more on sat...
after the debriefing session was a short meeting with jeff...
have alot of things to work on now...
shoutout to myself:JIA YOU ESTHER!!

sun was a fun day...
woke up late... (finally :D:D)
went to buy jacq's and mei jing's b'day present with leo at suntec...
didn't really know what to buy but thank God we manage to find the presents!! :D:D
i think the present bought for jacq was really funny..
leo and i was like thinking what her reaction will be...
haha!!
in the end it was really like what we said it was..
haha!!
after which we made our way to cafe cartel for dinner...
and to celebrate her's and the surprised mei jing's b'day...
haha!!
jolin was like keep trying to smear cake on to jacq's face and melvin was trying to do it on me...
hello earth to melvin!! my b'day is still mths away los...
haha!!
o well i think it was quite fun and nice
just to wish mei jing and jacq a very belated and happy b'day...

*the decision made can affect the whole of your future*

2009-05-01T00:39:00.001+08:00

been making decisions been making choices...
but now my head is in a spin and i dont noe wad to choose...

*even if the head spins u must stay strong*

2009-04-29T23:27:00.001+08:00

today was juz a bad day...
phone wasnt really working but thank God after awhile it did...
haha!!
skipped school today cause really really tired...
went to work though for today...
haha!
o well everythings the same...
cant wait for sat to come!!
new speaker!! :D:D

*courage is not with the absence of fear*

2009-04-29T00:06:00.001+08:00

i'm juz tired...

*the times have not just wad it seems its been*

2009-04-29T00:06:00.000+08:00

i'm juz tired...

*the times have not just wad it seems its been*

2009-04-27T20:49:00.002+08:00

well if u noticed i have alot of the pics of the movie 252 signal of life!!
it was a very very good movie!!
i cried like 3 times!!
it was super touching!!
i dont mind watching again though...
its really nice!!
and it was a very nice time to go out with rara too!!
long time no see her le!!
argh!!
haha!!
super nice lea!!
smiles smiles!! :D:D :):)
anyone wan to watch tell me k!! will watch with u de!! :D:D

2009-04-26T20:06:00.001+08:00

sorry again for not blogging ytd...
wad like kinda lazy los...

anyway ytd was svc with doc john it was very nice...
and for the first time i tink our cg was like almost filled the whole row??
there was like 13 ppl there??
jia you N412!!!
CONTINUE GROWING!! :) :)

then today was section meeting and also shopping with my dearest mummy!!
bought 2 shoes and 1 bag!!
yea yea yea!!
haha!!
very happy!! :D:D

*courage is not without the absence of fear*

2009-04-25T00:45:00.001+08:00

alrite...
firstly... sorry for not blogging ytd cause i was seriously tired...
argh!!
anyway ytd was kind of normal day other than "starting school" at 1pm...
we had a business seminar at Dover ITE...
so far right!!
after that went home took bus 74...
it took me like 1hr and like 30 mins to reach ang mo kio den another 10 mins to reach serangoon..
so tired las...
hais...

for today is yet another normal day...
haha!!
went for work and stuff and now home...
super tired los...
sians...

*dreams that does not have any plans for it is just day dreaming*

2009-04-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

i'm getting sick all over agin!! argh!!
wth...
argh!!
haiz...
hopefully wont be too sick though if not cannot work or go to school...
my aim for this year is to hit a attendance of at least 95% these year...
last year was bad bad bad...
so must do better this year!!!
JIA YOU ESTHER!!

*plan ahead, fail to do that and you are a goner*

2009-04-22T00:17:00.002+08:00

today was kinda boring for me...
and i think for every other tues it will be the same...
for starters my "school" aka "class", started at 1pm and ended at 5pm...
had 2 hrs of tutorials separately for 4 hrs straight...
the 1st 2 hrs was quite alright cause the office admin class was quite nice...
the nx 2 hrs were then boring...
was life skills class...
the teacher was like talking and talking and talking but no one in class was listening cause it was seriously boring los!!
anyway after school had to go for work...
but thank God school ended at like 4.30? so was able to take the bus instead of the mrt...
can save $0.45 lea..
quite alot you know haha..
thank God i reach my work place like quite on time so was quite okay..
well tomorrow will be another busy day..
jia you bah Esther!!

*We all need time but its only how we use it*

2009-04-20T21:27:00.002+08:00

making the difference is hard.
making the choice is difficult.
making the decision is different.

today was like very normal day bah.
woke up to go for school.
in the end had school for only like 1 and a 1/2 hr??
haha!
after that went to eat at pizza hut then watch 17 again.
nice show and Zac Efron was super cute!! >.<
i don't mind watching again though!!
haha!
cause Zac Efron is just too cute!!

cute right??
haha!!
but got alot of other shows to watch like...
Fast & Furios 4

& Handsome Suit!!

yeah!!
this is like the other 2 shows los!! haha!!
anyone that wants to watch can come find me bah!!
haha!!

*life is full of expectancy more than we can ever think of*

2009-04-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

today went to watch sniper with kor...
the show quite okay but the story line is quite boring...
after that went to Clarke Quay to take pay den over there nua abit...
then made my way to Shangri-la for dinner!!
very nice!! haha!!
very full also...
haha!!
played with joshua alot today also...
very happy! haha!!

*laughing and smiling is the best medicine to all people*

2009-04-19T01:27:00.001+08:00

wow...
today was a very very busy day.
was serving as Echo 2 today.
was kinda sudden for me to do Echo 2 cause was suppose to serve for Alpha 1.
but i think over all its a very big and good experience for me.
learnt alot too.
now my muscles are really aching...
very painful... :( :(
but tomorrow will be going for dinner and a movie so should be alright by tomorrow right??
hmmm...

*knowing what to do is not enough but knowing what will happen and preventing it is better*

2009-04-18T00:39:00.001+08:00

today's the same as everyday...
just that today i have no school...
haha!
went to work today...
but before that...
i made chocolate mousse!!
haha!!
hope the ppl tml will like it!! :D:D

*the excitement of the day can keep the smile going all day*

2009-04-15T23:48:00.001+08:00

first of all for today...
the super duper unexpected thing to see in campus is a monkey!!
haha!
was walking at the second floor until i saw a monkey that was like sitting at the ledge.
was like shocked but in the end got interested.
haha!
alot of ppl were like taking pics and making alot of noises.
i was with erm, meen yi, cheryl, denise, stacy...
we were like taking pics and stuff then suddenly it walked towards us!!
we screamed den we faster run los!
super funny!!
den after that the monkey even followed stacy...
haha!!
we ran into the student hub and we saw a girl who was like scared of the monkey when the monkey went in front of her and bare its teeth at her los!!
super scary!!
haha!!
that was wad happen in school!!

nth else happen los...
just some random stuff at work and stuff...
and also..
i'm still pissed at some of the peeps in the work place...
hopefully the pissed-ness will subside...

*calmness can make all things peaceful*

2009-04-14T23:56:00.003+08:00

today was second day of school.
don't know why i'm so tired even when school started at 1.
haha!
maybe its because of the hot weather.
o well.
today was alittle pissed too cause of the people at the workplace.
o well.
just try and hope that they will stop their childish ways and change haha!!
cant wait for the week to end so that a real week of studying can start.
haha!
everyone is kinda still in a holiday mood bah.
haha!

*do not worry about tomorrow as tomorrow will worry about itself*

2009-04-13T22:35:00.001+08:00

today is just a weird way to start the day
cause i woke up at 7 but went back to sleep cause i don't know why i'm so tired.
but anyways after that i woke up at like 8?
then made my way to school.
in the end we only start class at 11.
more like just to go get our timetable.
haha!!
so was quite weird other than that today its been good.

*Never Let Fear Close Your Door But Let Faith Keep Your Door Open*

2009-04-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

~THE DAYS YOU MADE ME~
the days which u left, made me feel empty.
the days which u were, gone made me feel lost.
the days which u weren't here, made me feel alone.
the days which u didn't come back, made me feel unwanted.

been tired this few days cause of work and church.
been serving the past few days so rather tired.
will be starting school tomorrow so kinda excited but kinda sad cause holidays ends at 00:00 tonight.
o well, this starts a new beginning of starting a new semester and term.
"All the best Esther!!"

*the end can also start a new beginning*

2009-04-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

~ALL I EVER WANTED~
All i ever wanted was that we would be together
All i ever wanted was to stay together
All i ever wanted was for you to be here
All i ever wanted was never to let you go
All i ever wanted is for you to be back

today i'm tired... but alittle moody in the morning.
reason being was that i went to "visit" my dad again.
and its just... the same feeling every single time i went there.
and that sad.
especially when i see my mum cry that will even break my heart even more.
every time we go back there, looking at his picture...
i will always remember of the times where he will hold me by the hand together with my mum walking on the streets laughing and enjoying.
i will always remember of the times where by he will always sit beside me while watching the tv.
its always that memory in my head that will go pass my mind leaving tears flowing down.
its been around 4 years since he left and i can never forget him because he have loved me so dearly.

i sometimes will dream if he was still around, what will our life be?
what will our future be?
will it be the same or changed?
but all this can only be a dream which will never come to past...
a dream that i really wish can happen...

maybe in the future when i go there with my child or with my loved ones...
i may not cry but i know i will always remember him as the Dad that loved me dearly...

*treasure what you can before it slips*

2009-04-10T00:41:00.002+08:00

~THE TIME~
the time u left, is the time i cry.
the time u leave, is the time i fall.
the time u waved, is the time i wept.

haha this time its like super short.
only 3 sentence but hopefully its nice enough haha.
well times short so i cant really speak much cause i'm really tired.
went to JW to help out with the Children Church Easter Service.
the drama was rather cute.
but today am really tired.
after helping out JW had to go down to expo to help out with support.
so was rather tired.
well Easter services are coming so i'm very excited!!
yeah!!
all the way now~~!!

*the vision carried upon your back will never fade*

2009-04-08T23:34:00.001+08:00

today was quite a bad day cause was like having flu.
not really feeling well.
hopefully i wont get sick las.
is super tired and sick...
hopefully wont be sick tomorrow.

*knowing where to find you is knowing that you are always in my mind*

2009-04-06T22:37:00.003+08:00

~REACHING~
reaching the corner, i stretch out my hand.
reaching the dark, i wish of you to be there.
reaching the light, i wish to hold your hands.
reaching the future, i know that you'll be there.
reaching the time, i hope you'll always be here.
reaching the fall, i dream to be with you.

today was quite a good day i guess.
was out with a group of cool peeps to celebrate melvin's 17th birthday.
was fun though. haha!! *(especially splatting the cake on melv's face... :P:P)*
took quite alot of pics today...
today entertainment like is me like that.
keep taking weird pics. haha!!
more like unglam. haha!!
o well tomorrow will be quite a same day as usual.
work at night but hopefully can go to spa with mum on wed cause she wants me to accompany her.
will see.
[Happy Birthday Melvin]

*making a difference even with little effort shown*

2009-04-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

today is the same as everyday haha!!
just working and stuff.
then planning for tml.
cause tml is melvin's birthday.
will be going out as like one big big group haha!
well hope that the weather and everything will be good!!

*long sufferings are what we must endure in*

2009-04-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

~CARRYING ON~
not knowing where my dreams will lead me, i carry on
not knowing where love will bring, i carry on
not knowing where visions will bring, i carry on
not knowing where smiles will lead me, i carry on
not knowing where God will lead me, i carry on

i just feeling so very tired.
day after day its the same old thing.
day after day i go through the same stuff.
it may be alright but i always think of where my future will lie on.
green pastures?? deep sea??
all i know is i only wish to carry out what He wants me to carry out.
the dreams and visions which i have are only from Him.
and i believe it will come to past if i place my trust in Him.

*believing is one thing but trusting is another*

2009-04-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

[feeling: smiley]
[mood: contented]
[reason: just happy!!]

today quite tired but was over all quite alright.
although work made me even more tired but still feeling happy and contented.
cg today was also very very good.
learn alot of stuff.

*faith is dead without works*

2009-04-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

[feeling: frustrated]
[mood: sleepy]
[reason: the stupid ite website doesnt load. so i cant check my exam results!!]

hais...
let it load like dont know how long le los..
hais...
o well tml will still be having morning prayer meeting
after which is work
then cg.
i think i seriously need to rest soon too.
but my hol's are ending.. :(
o well jia you bah!!

*continue to carry on and carry on*

2009-04-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

[feelings: tired]
[mood: sleepy]
[reason: went for morning PM den to work. currently now still tired.]

2009-03-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

~THE REAL MEANING~
what really is the meaning of life
is it just getting through time and not knowing what we have done wrong
what really is the meaning of living
is it just being able to go through life and not knowing what we have left behind
what really is the meaning of loving
is it just being able to find someone and not know the person at all
what really is the meaning of leaving
is it just being able to put every single memory in our head and not think about it

i dont really know why i thought about it but it just came into my mind.
what is the different meanings of life, living, loving, leaving??
is there a difference or is it all similar??
does everyone go through the same thing??
does everyone understand the meanings???
does everyone know what are the reasons for the meanings??

*understanding yourself and knowing what your dreams & visions are*

2009-03-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

today is a very slpy day for me...
went to work then in the end my boss tell me actually i no need work de...
hai..
den i dont noe y i woke up so early for wad...
haha!
den when wan to go out with my mum, it rains like super heavy... haha!!
well den after dat i went to have dinner with andy, lena, gaius and harvey...
in the end i have a very very bad case of stomach cramps...
hai...
in the end take cab home...
hai...
hopefully tml will be better bah!!

*careful planning will take you a long way*

2009-03-29T01:04:00.002+08:00

u can say i'm kinda thinking what do i really want to do after i study and settle down to find a job.
maybe u can say i'm thinking very far.
but hey..
i'm ending ITE in 1 years time.
its not very long you know.

i know my dream in the past was to open a fashion boutique and be a fashion designer.
but then..
now my dream has "expanded" literally...
i want to open a fashion boutique and a cafe at the same time.
these 2 will be linked together.
the name "dandesilks"
'dande'- in the mean is like dandelions, small but cute
'silks'- in the mean is just as it say silk, smooth and with texture.
but then...
alot of time i always feel that its too fast to say anything yet...

*we make wrong decision, but its making the right decision to change it*

2009-03-28T01:04:00.002+08:00

~THE THINGS THAT YOU LEFT ME~
left me on the shallows
left me on the ridge
left me by the side walks
left me by the roads
left me in the sun
left me in the rain
left me a smile
left me a rage
left me sadness
left me rainbows

i think what i did here is quite funny haha...
don't really know how i thought it out haha!!
o well
today rather the same...
work and stuff...
tomorrow will have to reach expo at 10 to help out with the chair arrangement.
hopefully i will have enough sleeps!!
haha!!

*the presence which you carries is by your mood*

2009-03-27T01:46:00.001+08:00

[feeling: tired]
[mood: alittle unhappy]
[reason: first thing my mum did when she saw me she scolded me]

o well my mum did say that she don't really see me now adays cause i'm not really at home.
i really try and stay home but one thing is work...
i work like late to the night like around 11?? 12++ den reach home??
well i shall make more effort to stay at home and spend more time with her.
all the best all the way!!

*know your dream know your vision and believe that it will come true with every effort you put in*

2009-03-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

~THE DAYS OF WAITING (PART 2)~
i saw you walk out the door
i saw you slam it shut
i saw you going into the car
i saw you drive away
i saw you not stopping
i saw you until you were not seen again
and there i sat thinking that you will walk back through the door
and there i sat thinking that you will open the door
and there i sat thinking that you will come out of the car
and there i sat thinking that you will stop driving
and there i sat thinking that you will stop
and there i sat thinking that you will return
now here i am still thinking about the day you left
thinking bout why you left
thinking bout why you didn't return
thinking about will you ever return

*don't think of the past but think of the future*

2009-03-23T11:25:00.001+08:00

~THE DAYS OF MY LIFE (Part 1)~
I see the clouds form.
I see the people go pass.
I see the peoples laughter.
I see the hope in everyone.
I see the dreams in people.
I see the sadness of times.
I see the time it passes by.
I see the love in everyone.
I see the reason to live.
I see the understanding of the wise.

alright...
this poet i thought bout may not really rhyme but it has a second part...
so if you wanna know what i'm going to write then read on tomorrow!!

*the different walks of life makes us different but we can choose to be the same*