Monday, September 29, 2008
dont really noe wads going through my mind... its like juz the other day i had a dream of my father... den i wake up in tears and literally in tears.. is like a recap of the days which i felt was so dark... dat i felt so so very lonely.. its like going through a re-run of the saddest days dat i had in my whole life.. going through it again juz in a dream made it feel so real.. but in the dream i could only see him going through the turmoil and not even be able to help him.. it made me feel so very useless.. but in dis dream it was still different.. it also showed me of how he loved me so.. dat even during his last hours he was still remembering us and still loving us soo much.. although he didnt wan to leave us but he knew he had to.. and it was already his time.. i noe dat he had alot to say to us and more over to me.. not being there even at the last min to be able to hold his hand was definately the saddest thing i would regret till now.. it was the only moment when i realise dat he was always there for me when i was happy and sad... and now after he's left he is still wib me be it happy or sad... in dis dream it really made me feel how love can be so strong.. and i definately still wan to thank the Lord for giving me such a loving father as He is.. for providing me with love when my earthly father couldn't.. definately i still miss him o so dearly but i believe he is looking at me and still loving me.. all i wish was time to go back so dat i can tell him how much i love him so much also.. and how sorry i was to make him angry at so many different occasions.. all i have to say is:
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Thank you Daddy, your love has covered me for so long, even when i was young as a child u have never failed to teach me about love through yur teachings or even yur scoldings. i noe i have made u mad so many times but u still gave in to me in the end. i Thank You for the love u gave to me when u noe dat u may not get back in the end but u still gave it anyways. u really show me how love can be so very strong. You will always be missed and loved in my heart always. and Daddy, Sorry and Thank You for your love."*love can be so ever strong for it will always be around u*
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9:19 PM
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
i tink i really enjoyed myself alot for dis week. i mean its really nice to noe dat u have so many ppl dat love u so much to take time out to celebrate yur b'day!! i mean how nice is dat!! very nice rite?? haha. anyways i tink i muz seriously thank Mel, Celes, Andy, Kor, Dorigo, Edwin, Ivan, Stanley for the gifts and celebration!! thz lots to them to make me feel so loved!! :) thz alot guyz if u guyz ever read dis haha :) love ya guyz to bits!! :)
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11:52 PM
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
i
tink i
juz went random all of a sudden
haha.. its like i went to the saloon on
thurs after work.. den all i wanted was
juz to like
lossen the weight but i suddenly went u can
juz cut short
los.. but i did not cut like super short
las... is only a bit only
los...
haha... den i wash my hair den she help me blow straight.. i
tink it really convinced me
dat i really should go and straighten my hair
sia..
haha.. i
tink i'm seriously going to keep it at dis length bah..
haha.. anyway went out
wib my mummy today and i
tink i am really very blessed.. its been a really long time since i went out
wib her to like shop or
juz walk around.. we went to
orchard OG and i
tink its one of my fave shopping center to go
liao cause the dresses and clothes there are really nice... she blessed me with a new bag and like other stuff
las. and i also manage to pamper myself
wib like a new dress!! and i really like it
alot los!! so really thank God for the blessing
los!! i also really wan to thank God for such a great mother
dat i have.. even when she is tired she will still cook for us... i
tink it really makes me
tink of how mothers are really the best... not saying
dat fathers are not good but... some mothers have like tonnes of stuff to do but all
dat they are doing is
juz a way of saying and showing how much they love us without words.. today while i was working too i saw
mel wib her parents eating at the shop.. after her mum went to find her own
fwens i can see
dat her communication
wib her dad is very good and they really love spending time
wib each other...
definately some of us may
tink "parents so
naggy...
dont like to go out
wib them" or "huh.. go out
wib my mother.. go shopping some more...
ltr she buy some ugly clothes for me how??" i
tink some times it runs through my mind the same stuff but seriously speaking... who buys u the clothes when u were young?? when i saw how she
communicated wib her dad it reminded me of my dad... of how much time did i spent
wib him... although his not here now but hey i
noe dat i still love him
alot and i
noe he still loves me
alot... although he's not
wib me but i
noe he will forever be remembered by me... and
definately by the whole family.. i guess all i wan to say is spending time
wib yur love ones is to be treasured the most.. u wont
noe when they will leave u or when they will be gone... time spent
wib them will always be a loving memory
dat u will have
dat will last forever...
*
Nvr let time slip away.. cause time is like a
whisper... ... ... ..."
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12:34 AM
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Monday, September 15, 2008
been some time since i last posted some stuff cause i cant really use my com as much... haha... anyway... things are going quite well at home, work and definately church... hopefully everything will still go smoothly in the future too :)
cant really tink of anything to write but all i can say is for the next few days also wont be able to post cause of work and stuff.. haha.. yup...
so until next time chow!!!
*time brings ppl closer but also further*
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2:59 PM
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Thursday, September 11, 2008
was praying and den i suddenly felt dat God was reminding me about a parable dat Jesus said to the disciples. it was about the 2 builders, 1 who built on flat ground of sand and another dat built on a foundation of sand. it was saying dat the 1 who built on the flat ground of sand built very fast but the 1 who built on a foundation of sand built slowly. however when there was a big storm the hse dat the builder built on the flat ground was washed away by the big storm however the hse dat the builder who built it on the foundation stood strong.it really hit me. it was like telling me, if yur foundation wib God is not strong den when the devil attacks me i will fall. but if i have a strong foundation wib God when the devil attacks me i will not fall cause He is wib me and will protect me from the storm aka devil. however the foundation is not built in juz a day but only wib much patience and to carry on when u feel tired. i tink its really telling me dat i should really bring back the foundation dat i have wib God and to reconcile back to Him. *Foundation muz first be layed before u lay the top*
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10:57 PM
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Monday, September 8, 2008
now i juz noe. haha.. so wad is my love languages.
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probably
Physical Touchwith a secondary love language being
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
| Physical Touch: | | 11 |
| Quality Time: | | 8 |
| Receiving Gifts: | | 5 |
| Acts of Service: | | 3 |
| Words of Affirmation: | | 3 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
Take the quiz
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8:33 PM
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i always tink dat we dont really need alot of stuff bt when i list out things dat i need i acutally find out dat there are more things i need den i dont need... its not like i really wan them but i tink i really wan to noe if its really there.. definately its there but maybe u can say dat i'm greedy but i tink everyone in life should have sth more in life den juz living life juz like dat... i can tell u tons of stuff dat i feel i need but maybe to u it may not be as important but dats juz the way it is... i only noe nvr to be juz wad i can be but to be able to noe dat there is more than juz wad u see in the mirror... i can be more and better den wad i am now... living through thought.. being there for not only yurself but for others... is it dat hard to tink dat in life theres more to it den needs?? or is it juz like dat?? dat everytime in the day if i tink bout sth it muz be a need... i noe dat wad i need nw is to really grow more in the Lord and i wan to focus in which i find it very difficult... i dont noe y... its like juz so diff for me... life i tink is ever so different...
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3:49 PM
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Friday, September 5, 2008
todays the same... work and stuff... i tink i'll blog more when i'm home...haha...
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11:44 AM
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