Name!! Esther
BOD!! 23-09-91
Email!! cape_of_fire@hotmail.com (FB)
wake_hearts@hotmail.com (MSN)
Loves!! God,CHC,UM,N412!!
Likes!! My buddies from church and my kuku's from sch!!


Excited!! woohoo!!!


-New bible
-MP3
-Laptop(Vaio)


---[N412]---
x[N412]x
x[Ang Ren]x
x[Bryan]x
x[Boris]x
x[Celest]x
x[Merilyn]x
x[Philina]x
x[Samantha]x
x[Serene]x
x[Sisca]x
x[Wei Fang]x
x[ZhiYou]x

---[JOL]---
x[PUSH]x
x[Andy]x
x[Anzoe]x
x[Dorigo]x
x[Jia Mei]x
x[Jo]x
x[JOL]x
x[Kai Xin]x
x[Linda]x
x[Margaret]x
x[Nixi]x
x[Rickson]x
x[Samson]x
x[Sherin]x
x[Shireen]x
x[Shu Yun]x
x[Wen Kai]x
x[Vanessa]x
x[Yvette]x

---[USHER]---
x[Bao Ling]x
x[Harvey]x
x[Ivan]x
x[Jace]x
x[Jacqq]x
x[Jolin]x
x[Li Yun]x
x[Lena]x
x[Melvin]x
x[Mei Jing]x
x[Rita]x
x[Sheronica]x
x[Solomon]x
x[Wan Xiu]x
x[Yun Ru]x

---[ITE]---
x[Celeste]x
x[Cheryl]x
x[Denise]x
x[Ekin]x
x[Fian]x
x[Goldie]x
x[Haniz]x
x[Hazira]x
x[Izz]X
x[Rara]x
x[Seri]x
x[Stacy]x
x[Yaya]x
x[Zanne]x

---[CHC]---
x[Pastor Kong]x
x[Benjamin]x
x[Leonard]x
x[Irwin]x

---[OTHERS]---
x[Chong Xin]x
x[Wing]x



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today was juz a bad day...
phone wasnt really working but thank God after awhile it did...
haha!!
skipped school today cause really really tired...
went to work though for today...
haha!
o well everythings the same...
cant wait for sat to come!!
new speaker!! :D:D

*courage is not with the absence of fear*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:27 PM

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i'm juz tired...

*the times have not just wad it seems its been*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:06 AM

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i'm juz tired...

*the times have not just wad it seems its been*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:06 AM

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well if u noticed i have alot of the pics of the movie 252 signal of life!!
it was a very very good movie!!
i cried like 3 times!!
it was super touching!!
i dont mind watching again though...
its really nice!!
and it was a very nice time to go out with rara too!!
long time no see her le!!
argh!!
haha!!
super nice lea!!
smiles smiles!! :D:D :):)
anyone wan to watch tell me k!! will watch with u de!! :D:D

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 8:49 PM

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sorry again for not blogging ytd...
wad like kinda lazy los...

anyway ytd was svc with doc john it was very nice...
and for the first time i tink our cg was like almost filled the whole row??
there was like 13 ppl there??
jia you N412!!!
CONTINUE GROWING!! :) :)

then today was section meeting and also shopping with my dearest mummy!!
bought 2 shoes and 1 bag!!
yea yea yea!!
haha!!
very happy!! :D:D

*courage is not without the absence of fear*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 8:06 PM

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alrite...
firstly... sorry for not blogging ytd cause i was seriously tired...
argh!!
anyway ytd was kind of normal day other than "starting school" at 1pm...
we had a business seminar at Dover ITE...
so far right!!
after that went home took bus 74...
it took me like 1hr and like 30 mins to reach ang mo kio den another 10 mins to reach serangoon..
so tired las...
hais...

for today is yet another normal day...
haha!!
went for work and stuff and now home...
super tired los...
sians...

*dreams that does not have any plans for it is just day dreaming*

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i'm getting sick all over agin!! argh!!
wth...
argh!!
haiz...
hopefully wont be too sick though if not cannot work or go to school...
my aim for this year is to hit a attendance of at least 95% these year...
last year was bad bad bad...
so must do better this year!!!
JIA YOU ESTHER!!

*plan ahead, fail to do that and you are a goner*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:22 PM

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today was kinda boring for me...
and i think for every other tues it will be the same...
for starters my "school" aka "class", started at 1pm and ended at 5pm...
had 2 hrs of tutorials separately for 4 hrs straight...
the 1st 2 hrs was quite alright cause the office admin class was quite nice...
the nx 2 hrs were then boring...
was life skills class...
the teacher was like talking and talking and talking but no one in class was listening cause it was seriously boring los!!
anyway after school had to go for work...
but thank God school ended at like 4.30? so was able to take the bus instead of the mrt...
can save $0.45 lea..
quite alot you know haha..
thank God i reach my work place like quite on time so was quite okay..
well tomorrow will be another busy day..
jia you bah Esther!!

*We all need time but its only how we use it*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:17 AM

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making the difference is hard.
making the choice is difficult.
making the decision is different.

today was like very normal day bah.
woke up to go for school.
in the end had school for only like 1 and a 1/2 hr??
haha!
after that went to eat at pizza hut then watch 17 again.
nice show and Zac Efron was super cute!! >.<
i don't mind watching again though!!
haha!
cause Zac Efron is just too cute!!

cute right??
haha!!
but got alot of other shows to watch like...
Fast & Furios 4


& Handsome Suit!!


yeah!!
this is like the other 2 shows los!! haha!!
anyone that wants to watch can come find me bah!!
haha!!

*life is full of expectancy more than we can ever think of*


the musical notes which can never be erased...; 9:27 PM

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today went to watch sniper with kor...
the show quite okay but the story line is quite boring...
after that went to Clarke Quay to take pay den over there nua abit...
then made my way to Shangri-la for dinner!!
very nice!! haha!!
very full also...
haha!!
played with joshua alot today also...
very happy! haha!!

*laughing and smiling is the best medicine to all people*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:04 PM

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wow...
today was a very very busy day.
was serving as Echo 2 today.
was kinda sudden for me to do Echo 2 cause was suppose to serve for Alpha 1.
but i think over all its a very big and good experience for me.
learnt alot too.
now my muscles are really aching...
very painful... :( :(
but tomorrow will be going for dinner and a movie so should be alright by tomorrow right??
hmmm...

*knowing what to do is not enough but knowing what will happen and preventing it is better*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 1:27 AM

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today's the same as everyday...
just that today i have no school...
haha!
went to work today...
but before that...
i made chocolate mousse!!
haha!!
hope the ppl tml will like it!! :D:D

*the excitement of the day can keep the smile going all day*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:39 AM

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first of all for today...
the super duper unexpected thing to see in campus is a monkey!!
haha!
was walking at the second floor until i saw a monkey that was like sitting at the ledge.
was like shocked but in the end got interested.
haha!
alot of ppl were like taking pics and making alot of noises.
i was with erm, meen yi, cheryl, denise, stacy...
we were like taking pics and stuff then suddenly it walked towards us!!
we screamed den we faster run los!
super funny!!
den after that the monkey even followed stacy...
haha!!
we ran into the student hub and we saw a girl who was like scared of the monkey when the monkey went in front of her and bare its teeth at her los!!
super scary!!
haha!!
that was wad happen in school!!

nth else happen los...
just some random stuff at work and stuff...
and also..
i'm still pissed at some of the peeps in the work place...
hopefully the pissed-ness will subside...

*calmness can make all things peaceful*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:48 PM

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today was second day of school.
don't know why i'm so tired even when school started at 1.
haha!
maybe its because of the hot weather.
o well.
today was alittle pissed too cause of the people at the workplace.
o well.
just try and hope that they will stop their childish ways and change haha!!
cant wait for the week to end so that a real week of studying can start.
haha!
everyone is kinda still in a holiday mood bah.
haha!

*do not worry about tomorrow as tomorrow will worry about itself*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:56 PM

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today is just a weird way to start the day
cause i woke up at 7 but went back to sleep cause i don't know why i'm so tired.
but anyways after that i woke up at like 8?
then made my way to school.
in the end we only start class at 11.
more like just to go get our timetable.
haha!!
so was quite weird other than that today its been good.

*Never Let Fear Close Your Door But Let Faith Keep Your Door Open*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 10:35 PM

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~THE DAYS YOU MADE ME~
the days which u left, made me feel empty.
the days which u were, gone made me feel lost.
the days which u weren't here, made me feel alone.
the days which u didn't come back, made me feel unwanted.

been tired this few days cause of work and church.
been serving the past few days so rather tired.
will be starting school tomorrow so kinda excited but kinda sad cause holidays ends at 00:00 tonight.
o well, this starts a new beginning of starting a new semester and term.
"All the best Esther!!"

*the end can also start a new beginning*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 10:04 PM

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~ALL I EVER WANTED~
All i ever wanted was that we would be together
All i ever wanted was to stay together
All i ever wanted was for you to be here
All i ever wanted was never to let you go
All i ever wanted is for you to be back

today i'm tired... but alittle moody in the morning.
reason being was that i went to "visit" my dad again.
and its just... the same feeling every single time i went there.
and that sad.
especially when i see my mum cry that will even break my heart even more.
every time we go back there, looking at his picture...
i will always remember of the times where he will hold me by the hand together with my mum walking on the streets laughing and enjoying.
i will always remember of the times where by he will always sit beside me while watching the tv.
its always that memory in my head that will go pass my mind leaving tears flowing down.
its been around 4 years since he left and i can never forget him because he have loved me so dearly.

i sometimes will dream if he was still around, what will our life be?
what will our future be?
will it be the same or changed?
but all this can only be a dream which will never come to past...
a dream that i really wish can happen...

maybe in the future when i go there with my child or with my loved ones...
i may not cry but i know i will always remember him as the Dad that loved me dearly...

*treasure what you can before it slips*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:27 AM

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~THE TIME~
the time u left, is the time i cry.
the time u leave, is the time i fall.
the time u waved, is the time i wept.

haha this time its like super short.
only 3 sentence but hopefully its nice enough haha.
well times short so i cant really speak much cause i'm really tired.
went to JW to help out with the Children Church Easter Service.
the drama was rather cute.
but today am really tired.
after helping out JW had to go down to expo to help out with support.
so was rather tired.
well Easter services are coming so i'm very excited!!
yeah!!
all the way now~~!!

*the vision carried upon your back will never fade*

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today was quite a bad day cause was like having flu.
not really feeling well.
hopefully i wont get sick las.
is super tired and sick...
hopefully wont be sick tomorrow.

*knowing where to find you is knowing that you are always in my mind*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:34 PM

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~REACHING~
reaching the corner, i stretch out my hand.
reaching the dark, i wish of you to be there.
reaching the light, i wish to hold your hands.
reaching the future, i know that you'll be there.
reaching the time, i hope you'll always be here.
reaching the fall, i dream to be with you.

today was quite a good day i guess.
was out with a group of cool peeps to celebrate melvin's 17th birthday.
was fun though. haha!! *(especially splatting the cake on melv's face... :P:P)*
took quite alot of pics today...
today entertainment like is me like that.
keep taking weird pics. haha!!
more like unglam. haha!!
o well tomorrow will be quite a same day as usual.
work at night but hopefully can go to spa with mum on wed cause she wants me to accompany her.
will see.
[Happy Birthday Melvin]

*making a difference even with little effort shown*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 10:37 PM

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today is the same as everyday haha!!
just working and stuff.
then planning for tml.
cause tml is melvin's birthday.
will be going out as like one big big group haha!
well hope that the weather and everything will be good!!

*long sufferings are what we must endure in*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:53 PM

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~CARRYING ON~
not knowing where my dreams will lead me, i carry on
not knowing where love will bring, i carry on
not knowing where visions will bring, i carry on
not knowing where smiles will lead me, i carry on
not knowing where God will lead me, i carry on

i just feeling so very tired.
day after day its the same old thing.
day after day i go through the same stuff.
it may be alright but i always think of where my future will lie on.
green pastures?? deep sea??
all i know is i only wish to carry out what He wants me to carry out.
the dreams and visions which i have are only from Him.
and i believe it will come to past if i place my trust in Him.

*believing is one thing but trusting is another*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 1:17 AM

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[feeling: smiley]
[mood: contented]
[reason: just happy!!]

today quite tired but was over all quite alright.
although work made me even more tired but still feeling happy and contented.
cg today was also very very good.
learn alot of stuff.

*faith is dead without works*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 10:34 PM

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[feeling: frustrated]
[mood: sleepy]
[reason: the stupid ite website doesnt load. so i cant check my exam results!!]

hais...
let it load like dont know how long le los..
hais...
o well tml will still be having morning prayer meeting
after which is work
then cg.
i think i seriously need to rest soon too.
but my hol's are ending.. :(
o well jia you bah!!

*continue to carry on and carry on*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:04 AM

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[feelings: tired]
[mood: sleepy]
[reason: went for morning PM den to work. currently now still tired.]

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:02 AM

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