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it's her

Name!! Esther
BOD!! 23-09-91
Email!! cape_of_fire@hotmail.com (FB)
wake_hearts@hotmail.com (MSN)
Loves!! God,CHC,UM,N412!!
Likes!! My buddies from church and my kuku's from sch!!

her mind

Excited!! woohoo!!!

her desires

-New bible
-MP3
-Laptop(Vaio)

her loves

---[N412]---
x[N412]x
x[Ang Ren]x
x[Bryan]x
x[Boris]x
x[Celest]x
x[Merilyn]x
x[Philina]x
x[Samantha]x
x[Serene]x
x[Sisca]x
x[Wei Fang]x
x[ZhiYou]x

---[JOL]---
x[PUSH]x
x[Andy]x
x[Anzoe]x
x[Dorigo]x
x[Jia Mei]x
x[Jo]x
x[JOL]x
x[Kai Xin]x
x[Linda]x
x[Margaret]x
x[Nixi]x
x[Rickson]x
x[Samson]x
x[Sherin]x
x[Shireen]x
x[Shu Yun]x
x[Wen Kai]x
x[Vanessa]x
x[Yvette]x

---[USHER]---
x[Bao Ling]x
x[Harvey]x
x[Ivan]x
x[Jace]x
x[Jacqq]x
x[Jolin]x
x[Li Yun]x
x[Lena]x
x[Melvin]x
x[Mei Jing]x
x[Rita]x
x[Sheronica]x
x[Solomon]x
x[Wan Xiu]x
x[Yun Ru]x

---[ITE]---
x[Celeste]x
x[Cheryl]x
x[Denise]x
x[Ekin]x
x[Fian]x
x[Goldie]x
x[Haniz]x
x[Hazira]x
x[Izz]X
x[Rara]x
x[Seri]x
x[Stacy]x
x[Yaya]x
x[Zanne]x

---[CHC]---
x[Pastor Kong]x
x[Benjamin]x
x[Leonard]x
x[Irwin]x

---[OTHERS]---
x[Chong Xin]x
x[Wing]x


credits

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her rants

  • September 2008
  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • June 2009
  • July 2009
  • August 2009
  • September 2009
  • October 2009



  • Sunday, November 30, 2008


    todays been great!! :)
    svc was good.
    fellowhip was good!! :)
    food was also good haha!! :D
    anyways today was like walking around and den chatting las haha!!
    wei fang was like asking all of us of our pass relationships haha!!
    den we all toked bout it los haha!!
    den even after we went back, me, sisca, wei fang and mel was still toking bout it.. haha
    den me, mel, sisca was toking bout our expectations haha..
    found out from mel a good way to noe wad we should see in the person los. haha!!
    dats sort of a new revelation to me!! haha!! :D :D
    anyways tml will be kind of a busy day or more like mon will be a busy day haha!!


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    Friday, November 28, 2008


    i tink now adays i'm like going to blog like super early los hahas!!
    i guess is cause its juz to boring in class las!! haha!!
    everytime go sch but everytime so tired... den its like omg las...
    haiz... so boring!!
    haha..

    anyways ytd was like good las!! cause ytd there was a combine zone meeting at RW!!
    hahas!!
    so i went to clark quay to meet sisca like super early los!! haha
    the meeting was at 7.30 but we met at around 3+ haha. den we slack around at the central and den ate sub way and stuff. haha..
    actually wanted to cut hair de. den when reach central is like so ex can!!
    den sisca was like telling is 15+ 18+ only den i check is actually wash and blow only de. haha!!
    anyway at the meeting, it was not really like cg las. its more of sharing wad we feel about the AC.
    was very nice las i feel from all the sharing!!

    after the meeting me and sisca went to club marc. actually we went there to wait for zheng yuan and marc de cg de. haha.
    but after seeing the price there is like so cheap we each bought a shirt las!! haha!!
    it was only for $10!!! OMG rite!!haha!!
    the clothes is like so cheap yet so nice can!!haha!!
    den after dat we went home cause we didnt noe wer zheng yuan they all going too.haha..
    but after dat we got seperated for awhile cause the mrt was so cramp. haha..
    den my darling sisca was trap outside. :(
    anyway after dat we went home los!! haha!!

    hopefully today will be peaceful bah haha!!
    shall see if i can blog today ltr on. haha!!

    *club marc has really nice clothes and it is at a very very low price!!! Go buy!!!*


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    Thursday, November 27, 2008


    have been asked to make my blog a little more easier to read!! haha!!
    yea will try to haha!! cause very lazy lea.. haha..

    anyways today is the same as every other day los. but today i blog alittle earlier den usual las haha..
    normally is blog at nite but i blog in the middle of the afternoon los haha!!
    so ltr will be having combine cg at river walk as a zone..
    i tink it'll be good las!! haha!!

    den ytd was work. all was very well haha!!
    i dont tink much can be said for work los!!
    is like always suan me de... haha!!
    i tink suaning me is another part time job for them las!! grrr...
    den after work ytd went to meet up wib zheng yuan, marc, jeff, andy (jeff bro) and my dearest sisca!! haha!!
    went to chit chat wib them awhile at vivo den we went home los haha!!
    and i manage to noe the other gal marc likes. hehe.. :D :D
    haha!!

    today is very very boring... like no class like dat los. keep asking us to do work work work...
    haiz. sians...
    dis few days also very weird...
    keep wanting to go and watch movie.. but no one to watch with :( :(
    wan to watch like alot of shows can!!
    beverly hills chihuahua, cape no 7, wild child haha!!
    dis are all the must watched shows!! muhaha!!
    hopefully can find ppl go watch bah :D :D :) :)
    if u are reading dis and wan to watch too muz tell me k!! :D :D


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    Tuesday, November 25, 2008


    another day another time. haha.. nth like is changeable in my life time bah haha... but i tink its juz another new day los!! haha!! juz hopefully will get it through bah.. today is juz the plain old thing. like sch den work. haha. i tink after AC i still quite pumped up but there's nth to do!! den i'm like omg can.. haha!!

    anyway will be moving house soon from north ave 4 to north ave 1 hahas!!! gonna miss the place but its soooo very very close haha!! is like so near yet so far los!! haha!!

    anyway there will be like alot of things for me to do during the dec hol's like around 2 chalets dat i noe of dat will be held one for sec 3-4 class chalet den another is work place chalet. haha!! den after dat will be christmas wer i'll be staying out wib my beloved friends!! den there will be the christmas service!! also still... work... haha!!!

    den after the dec will be the new year's countdown!! woo hoo!!! haha!! cant wait for the next year to come cause next year will have... ... ... EMERGE!!! muhahaha!! but i not sure las. it is heard dat there will be emerge but not sure if confirm have or not but i hope so las!! haha!! den after dat will be back to boring old sch life. haha!!

    i guess u can say there wont be much change but there will still be at least a little change in the way i'll be spending my next year cause one thing i'm gonna do is of course to change a job or lets say working environment. haha.. the one i having now is not say not good las. but i tink i juz wan to have a change so as to noe wad it is like to work at other places los. and also to have a higher pay las. haha!! and also its also for me to be able to pay off my Arise & Build los. i mean i dont wan to cheat God of the promise which i had made to Him mah. and i also wan to glorify Him in a much better working environment and some where which i can impact more ppl los. haha. so if anyone got any jobs to intro muz make sure to intro me los. haha!! i very hardworking de. haha!!

    if yur boss hire me confirm very very de good de. haha!! but i can only start working there after june hol's so haha.. hopefully will still have jobs avalible las. den after dat would be more of focusing on my sch cause i'm gonna graduate on the 2010!!! haha!!

    den hopefully i will be able to go into poly wer i noe i will study in Business Hospitality and Tourism course. hehe!! :D but i noe its all in Gods plan de!! so God will lead me and i will also do my best to study and do my best in my sch!!! :)

    *noe wer yur life is heading and bring yur vision along!! better yet make sure dat wer u heading is wer u will end which is yur dream!!*


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    Monday, November 24, 2008


    wow wow!! AC is over!! omg!! its been like awesome to awesome to awesome!! haha!! from Dr. AR Bernard, Phil Pringle, Pst Kong, Ulf Ekman and of course Benn Hinn!! omg!! day after day is like God's presence upon God's presence!!
    wow!! all i can say is that i will miss this 5 days of power pack presence of God!! but i cant wait for AC 2010!!! muhaha!! its like gonna be so very very great!! but i wonder hu will be coming next?? haha!!

    but i tink its not only should be the speakers but also the different singers that came!! like Carola, Don Moen, CCC band, CHC band, True Worshippers, Liu Gen Hong, JJ Lin. i mean they are really shinning for God!! like for JJ Lin, he gave his life to the Lord and he is also shinning in the market place!!

    and talk about presence of God, for the Benny Hinn service on sat!! its like omg!! such strong presence!! great healings!! i have nvr felt God's presence so very strong before!! it was great!! i felt so renewed in the spirit!! and the words which he prophesied was mind blowing!! nvr have i thought someone will prophesy dis way!! but i mean praise the Lord!!

    and also for dis pass 5 days although i have been serving, i learnt alot too. in a way wer i learn and see how much the ppl really love God and wan to noe God more. dis i feel can nvr be learnt in juz being in a cg cause i will have to engage the congregation instead of juz being around my members. dis is definately one thing dat i feel has taught me alot also through out the 5 days.

    *dont juz receive but also freely give*


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    Sunday, November 16, 2008


    today quite tired bah.. haha.. went for support duty today..
    did support from 12+ till 5.. but i tink its all juz to get ready for AC!! omg!!
    its juz 3DAYS haha!!
    all i can say now i'm all excited for AC and also to serve!! haha!!
    and also our shirt!!
    haha!!
    anyway today after support.. went to ang mo kio to eat wib..
    ivan (who was singing and making all of us laugh and toking alot), melvin, leonard, lena, siew ping, rite, me!! haha..
    we like dont noe wer to eat los..
    say go bugis den suddenly chomp chomp den suddenly ang mo kio haha..
    den in the end we went ang mo kio las but waaa they nearly scare me los!!
    cause i buy the standard tix mah den melvin like say" o lets go bugis" waaaa scare me los.. haha
    but in the end went ang mo kio S11 eat los.
    haha..
    den went walk walk awhile jiu go home los :) haha
    now quite tired..
    but still need to rush hw!! argh!!
    plz God gib me more time!! D:


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    Thursday, November 13, 2008


    currently feeling very very sick...
    my throat is super sore now...
    plz o god send me yur angels to take dat headache away!!
    arh!!
    i still have alot of stuff to do lea..
    arh!!
    still got project to finish..
    hopefully can finish everything bah..
    *feeling cold*


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    Monday, November 10, 2008


    waa today very tired lea... hahas... went swimming juz now wib my dear sisca.. haha..
    but i tink we swim also kinda no use cause after dat we went to eat botak jones.. haha... it was very nice though haha..
    we also saw my big bro!!! haha.. in a sense a big kor kor to me from church!! haha!!
    and dats Ronnie!! haha!! he's seen me from pri 4 all the way till i went to youth svc haha!! its been... very long haha!! was so happy to see him!! :)
    he is like really my big big kor kor los.. cause he even treat me and sisca to a meal can.. and also another basket of fries!! haha!! he's soooooo nice!! :)
    anyway now very tired.. feel like slping los haha..
    anyway it will be a muz thing to swim every mon now.. so if u are reading dis and wan to go out wib me on a mon.. u will have to book den haha!! :P
    chows!!


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    Saturday, November 8, 2008


    its been like another day liao so nth has much changed haha!!
    but i guess dats how life gets..
    it juz goes round and round and round...
    doing the same old thing time and time again...
    haha!!
    anyway was blog hopping around [not really alot of blogs to hop around anyway :D ]
    den i saw the HSM3 song :Can i have this dance??
    i mean for me [who have watched HSM3 for 3 times]...
    its my FAVE song in the whole movie!!
    i mean its like so sweet and the melody its... to be undescrible...

    the lyrics:
    Take my hand, take a breath
    Pull me close, and take one step
    Keep your eyes locked on mine
    And let the music be your guide

    (Troy and Gabriella)
    Now won't you promise me (Won't you promise me)
    That you'll never forget (That we'll keep dancing)
    To keep dancing (To keep dancing)
    Where ever we go next

    (Troy and Gabriella)
    It's like catching lightening
    The chances of of finding, someone like you It's one in a million
    The chances of feeling the way we do
    And with every step together
    We just keep on getting better
    So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
    Can I have this dance?

    (Gabriella) Ooooooh!
    No mountains to high enough
    (Troy and Gabriella)
    No oceans to wide
    Cuz together or not, Our dance wont stop
    Let it rain, let it pour
    What we have is worth fighting for
    You know I believe, that we were meant to be
    (Gabriella) Yeah!

    (Troy and Gabriella)
    It's like catching lightening
    The chances of of finding, someone like you (Oooh like you)
    It's one in a million The chances of feeling the way we do (The way we do)
    And with every step together
    We just keep on getting better
    So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
    Can I have this dance
    Can I have this dance? (This dance)
    [Can I have this dance?]



    i mean how sweey can the song be!! omg!!
    and the dance is also way cool!!
    waltz lea!! so sweet!!
    i tink its like being sweeped off yur feet los!!
    arh!!
    i juz love it...
    but theres also another ballad dat i like in the movie...

    I just wanna be with you
    I got alot thingsI have to do..
    All these distractions
    Our futures coming soon
    We're Being pulled 100 different directions
    But whatever happens
    I know Ive got you

    Your on my mind your in my heart
    It doesnt matter where we are
    It'll be alright
    Even if we're miles apart
    All I wanna do, Is be with you be with you
    Theres nothing we can do Just wanna be with you
    Only you
    No matter where life takes us nothing can break us apart..
    You know its true
    I just wanna be with you

    (Be with you)

    You know how life can be
    It changes over nightIts sunny but raining, but its alright
    A friend like you..
    Always makes it easy
    I know that your kidding me everytime.

    Through every up through every down
    You know I'll always be around
    Through everything you can count on me..
    All I wanna do, Is be with you be with you
    Theres nothing we can do

    Just wanna be with you
    Only you
    No matter where life takes us nothing can break us apart..
    You know its true
    I just wanna be with you
    I just wanna be with you...

    its very sweet too!! omg!!
    haha!!
    o well i will have a new list in my wish list..
    haha
    the HSM3 soundtrack haha!!


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    Tuesday, November 4, 2008


    hey hey.. its been super duper long since i last updated dis..haha...
    i guess u can say i'm pretty busy los.. haha...
    well days are almost the same most of the time haha... i tink i should really blog more if not i'll forget alot of stuff haha...
    well on sat was going home wib mel, wen kai (surprisingly), jon, heidi...
    den me and mel were like talking bout marriage and stuff den mel suddenly came up wib an equation.. haha..
    marriage is like a business..
    first is the starting period of consideration...
    second the accepting part which is the proposal...
    then the probation period which is the engagement...
    then the signing of the contract wib terms and conditions applying...
    den u will have liabilities (children) who may turn into assets or juz remain liabilities...
    haha...
    cute rite?? haha...

    den for the past 2-3 weeks i have seen HSM3 for around 3 times.. haha...
    it is a nice show but i dont tink i wan to increase to 4 times haha...
    anyway went to watch ytd wib sisca, serene, zheng yuan, jeffery, joseph, andy(jeff bro), micah..
    we went to cathay at doby...
    i was like very happy to go and watch las cause finally i can see serene after a long long time!! haha...
    missed her like sooo much!!
    den of all ppl to see i saw a person which i have named the top top top person dat made my life pretty miserable and irritates me totally and is completely childish person from my sec sch!!
    is like omg!! of all places to see him and of all time...
    and not only once but twice!!
    omg los!!
    haha... but still in all i tink its quite a good outing ytd.. haha..
    but i tink zheng yuan, sisca and me should be quite tired bah since we went for morn prayer den went out until like 11 plus at nite haha..
    o well life still have to go on...
    but sometimes i juz wish dat singapore wont be dat small until i have to see the persons first one more time!! omg!!!

    well dats one thing in dis few weeks haha...
    another thing dat i think was quite impacting in dis week was dat i was watching Princess Dairies and in one scene it says: "...courage is not without the absence of fear..." and its like keep being in my head for a very very long long time.. haha..
    but i tink its really very very true cause whenever we wan to do something its always the fear in our heart dat will stop us from doing it...
    and so if we wan to use out courage we should really stand up against our fear and go all way out...

    well also for the past few weeks i noe dat i will be pretty busy wib sch too since i have so many projects to do soon too :( but......... i like to do projects den exams plz!! haha!!
    i feel projects are soooo fun!! so much better den exams!! and i mean soooooooooo much better!!!

    and its also arise and build period!! omg!!
    its finally here!!
    i believe dat in this period i will be able to grow more and i noe dat i will fulfill wad i promised to God!!
    and there is also... ... ... ... AISA CONFRENCE!!!!
    OMG!!!! haha!!! i juz cant wait!!!!
    haha!!!


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