./.the music with the missing notes.\.

Monday, March 30, 2009

~THE REAL MEANING~
what really is the meaning of life
is it just getting through time and not knowing what we have done wrong
what really is the meaning of living
is it just being able to go through life and not knowing what we have left behind
what really is the meaning of loving
is it just being able to find someone and not know the person at all
what really is the meaning of leaving
is it just being able to put every single memory in our head and not think about it

i dont really know why i thought about it but it just came into my mind.
what is the different meanings of life, living, loving, leaving??
is there a difference or is it all similar??
does everyone go through the same thing??
does everyone understand the meanings???
does everyone know what are the reasons for the meanings??

*understanding yourself and knowing what your dreams & visions are*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 9:14 PM

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Sunday, March 29, 2009

today is a very slpy day for me...
went to work then in the end my boss tell me actually i no need work de...
hai..
den i dont noe y i woke up so early for wad...
haha!
den when wan to go out with my mum, it rains like super heavy... haha!!
well den after dat i went to have dinner with andy, lena, gaius and harvey...
in the end i have a very very bad case of stomach cramps...
hai...
in the end take cab home...
hai...
hopefully tml will be better bah!!

*careful planning will take you a long way*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:43 PM

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u can say i'm kinda thinking what do i really want to do after i study and settle down to find a job.
maybe u can say i'm thinking very far.
but hey..
i'm ending ITE in 1 years time.
its not very long you know.

i know my dream in the past was to open a fashion boutique and be a fashion designer.
but then..
now my dream has "expanded" literally...
i want to open a fashion boutique and a cafe at the same time.
these 2 will be linked together.
the name "dandesilks"
'dande'- in the mean is like dandelions, small but cute
'silks'- in the mean is just as it say silk, smooth and with texture.
but then...
alot of time i always feel that its too fast to say anything yet...

*we make wrong decision, but its making the right decision to change it*

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Saturday, March 28, 2009

~THE THINGS THAT YOU LEFT ME~
left me on the shallows
left me on the ridge
left me by the side walks
left me by the roads
left me in the sun
left me in the rain
left me a smile
left me a rage
left me sadness
left me rainbows

i think what i did here is quite funny haha...
don't really know how i thought it out haha!!
o well
today rather the same...
work and stuff...
tomorrow will have to reach expo at 10 to help out with the chair arrangement.
hopefully i will have enough sleeps!!
haha!!

*the presence which you carries is by your mood*

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Friday, March 27, 2009

[feeling: tired]
[mood: alittle unhappy]
[reason: first thing my mum did when she saw me she scolded me]

o well my mum did say that she don't really see me now adays cause i'm not really at home.
i really try and stay home but one thing is work...
i work like late to the night like around 11?? 12++ den reach home??
well i shall make more effort to stay at home and spend more time with her.
all the best all the way!!

*know your dream know your vision and believe that it will come true with every effort you put in*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 1:46 AM

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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

~THE DAYS OF WAITING (PART 2)~
i saw you walk out the door
i saw you slam it shut
i saw you going into the car
i saw you drive away
i saw you not stopping
i saw you until you were not seen again
and there i sat thinking that you will walk back through the door
and there i sat thinking that you will open the door
and there i sat thinking that you will come out of the car
and there i sat thinking that you will stop driving
and there i sat thinking that you will stop
and there i sat thinking that you will return
now here i am still thinking about the day you left
thinking bout why you left
thinking bout why you didn't return
thinking about will you ever return

*don't think of the past but think of the future*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:19 AM

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Monday, March 23, 2009

~THE DAYS OF MY LIFE (Part 1)~
I see the clouds form.
I see the people go pass.
I see the peoples laughter.
I see the hope in everyone.
I see the dreams in people.
I see the sadness of times.
I see the time it passes by.
I see the love in everyone.
I see the reason to live.
I see the understanding of the wise.

alright...
this poet i thought bout may not really rhyme but it has a second part...
so if you wanna know what i'm going to write then read on tomorrow!!

*the different walks of life makes us different but we can choose to be the same*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:25 AM

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Sunday, March 22, 2009

~TRYING SO HARD~
Tried to talk,
But no words came out.
Tried to understand,
But i got hurt instead.
Tried to reason out,
But i was pushed behind.
Tried to love,
But you throw it aside.
Tried to be there,
But you never show up.

now my poeting side of me is coming back again.
haha..
like doing poet again...
omg!!
haha!!
o well today was a good service whereby Pst talked about the different Love Busters who will some how destroy peoples marriage.
it really sets me think of what if it happens to me next time...
will i be able to handle it??
hmmm...
i think for now i'll leave it for the past...
haha!!

*what good is it to win an argument but lost a relationship*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:20 AM

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Saturday, March 21, 2009

~TIRED~
tired to talk,
tired to speak.
tired to say,
tired to know.
tired to believe,
tired to understand.
tired to love,
tired to breathe.

*the reason to smile to you is always simple... because of love*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:56 AM

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

haiz...
today is like the same...
been coughing the whole day...
from morn to nite...
sians...
how i wish for the cough to go...
its seriously painfull...
hopefully i can get much better by sat...
haiz...

*reminiscence is nothing but just memories*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:16 PM

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juz came back from work...
very tired...
haiz...
waiting for tml to come...
haha...
den after work maybe go out and buy stuff...
haha
kinda sad dat i didnt manage to go for revival meeting today...
one thing is cause of work another is cause i'm sick... :(:(
having a bad sore throat...
cant really speak loudly... :(:(
o well i tink i should rest and drink more water!! :):)

*cherish the days you have with each other*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:19 AM

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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

sorry to not post ytd...
was too tired ytd...

anyway ytd was quite tired although we didnt go sentosa...
as in we did but to go there the coffee bean and sit down...
haha!! lol!!
after dat juz walk around with a big bag around vivo los...
haiz...
den after dat we all went home...
will post some of the pics...
but most of them will be posted on facebook!!

today also quite tiring...
woke up at 7+ to make breakfast den meet mel and celes at seragoon mrt to go to JW for revival meeting...
the meeting was good...
feels the need to reach out to my fwens again!! :D:D
jia you bah!!

*people dont care how much you know, but wants to know how much you care*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:26 PM

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Sunday, March 15, 2009

juz reached home from work...
tired...
more over today the stupid stalker again...
haiz...
i tink now is the 9th time??
can he juz get lost???
argh!!!
shall stop tinking bout it...

anyways, cant wait for tml!! :D:D
haha!!
hopefully tml doesn't rain!!!
wan to go for a tan for very long le!!
haiz...

*living the days but not living for the days*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:50 PM

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today was a rather tiring day...
got woken up at 8+ by joshua...
hai...
den have to look after him...
den after dat went for svc...
was late again... (thanks to many peeps...>.< no names!! :D:D)

served at charlie today too...
charlie areana ic...
hmmm...
quite tiring cause i walked around alot... and i mean alot... haha!!
den after dat went to eat at bedok again.. haha!!
but the food there not bad...
den had to rush for the last bus to go home...
and finally safe and sound...
thank goodness i didnt take the other way home...
cause i saw the stalker juz below my block but he didnt see me...
whew...
haha!!
well i'm safe and sound here!!
haha!!

*its time to not exclude but include others*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 1:10 AM

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Friday, March 13, 2009

whew...
tired...
worked for a full day today...
legs are aching from running and walking around for the whole day...
haiz...
haha...
pay been risen to $6 happy!! :):)
tml still have to work...
but hols is here!!
yeah!! haha!!
very slpy...
but dont feel like slping...
haha...
dont noe y haha!

anyway on wed went out wib jacqq, leo, andy, soloman, lena and jonathan...
went from suntec to MS to selegie...
haha...
at first is meet jacqq and leo...
haha...
jacqq was like keep getting tricked by me los haha!!
den leo treat us eat dinner haha!
very funny los...
haha...
den after dat jacqq was like suppose to have bs at the suntec office los...
but den after we reach there we found out dat she dont have bs los...
haha!!
den we saw soloman...
after dat we went to coffee bean to accompany jacqq do her hw...
haha!!
very stonely for me los... haha!!
like super long time since i last studied science more like studied chem...
supser long ago los...
i mean super!!
haha!!
but after dat met andy,lena and jonathan at MS...
walked to the esplanada...
but den in the end dont noe do wad so like stone there for like another 20 mins??
den walk to selegie play pool for 1 hr haha!!
walk like super duper long!!
super duper tired...
haiz...
now also super duper tired...

will stop here...
will let the pics do the toking...
but not in here...
in FACEBOOK!!!
HAHA!!
wan to see den go facebook k!!
got alot of cute pics and videos!!
haha :):) :D:D
the actor and actress is of course JACQQ AND LEO!!!
haha!!

*giving thanks to everything that He has provided*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:44 AM

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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

yea!!
my hol's are finally here!!
yuppie!!
haha!!
last paper today..
quiet good today...
but i'm juz glad my hol's are here!!
haha!!
finally a time to relax and enjoy my times...
haha!!
anyways hol's i tink for me is quite the same bah...
work and church and maybe going out from time to time...
haha!!

anyways i guess u can say i will definately spend my time wisely...
and hopefully make my blog my photo-full...
haha!!

*life always bring surprises, no matter big or small, be prepared*

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

yeah!!!
tml will be my last paper then i'm free!!
yuppie!!!
haha!!
cant wait los...
haha!!
finally a time to rest...
haha
but for now still have to study las...
cause tml still got the paper...
JIA YOU JIA YOU!!

* love is sacrificing self without wanting anything back in return*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:45 AM

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Monday, March 9, 2009

todays juz a pretty fine day...
finished an exam paper!!
haha!!
another 2 more to go!!
Jia You Esther!!!
haha!!
well today was kinda having alittle headache...
hmmmm...
hopefully tml will be better bah...
jia you!!

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 8:48 PM

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Sunday, March 8, 2009

well for today had section meeting
was nice
learnt quite alot alot
after the meeting went to IKEA to eat
haha
quite nice :):)
anyway now abit stress cause tml got paper...
waaaaaa!!!
God bless me :):)
jia you Esther!!! :D:D

~HAVE WE EVER~
have we ever met...
have we ever saw...
have we ever been...
have we ever talked...
have we ever known...
have we ever thought...

*living for the future and not for the past*

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alrites...
for today i tink its juz rather simple...

woke up like at 12??
was kinda woken up by my mum toking with her long lost cuz from malaysia...
was kinda cool though haha...
anyways after that my big bro came home before going to church...
joshua and tyler came of course...
joshua was as naughty and of course noisy but still very cute!! haha!!
after that i went for svc but was serving the communion los...
quite fun las...
o ya...
today my da sao help me put on make up haha...
for a very very long time since i put on make up haha...
after that went for svc los...

was on the bus about to reach expo le den...
it rained!!!
i was like omg!!
y rain!!!
was like left with a few stops lea...
grrrr....
was a bit late for communion los...
haiz...
but anyway svc was good...
and i also finally managed to fellowship with my cell group today...
after maybe 1mth or so not fellowshipping with them...
miss them to bits!!
haha...
den went back home with sisca, mel and sam...
was chatting on the bus los...haha...

den same thing which has happen...
the same stalker stalked me home...
grrrrrrrr....
but this time was like i tink another person was with him...
so a bit more scared las...
but thank god in front of me was a family so was safe...
well so now i'm safely at home blogging...
will be kinda busy tml though...
will blog more tml den!!
chows peeps!!

*rough words will come back to you only with rough words*

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 12:19 AM

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Saturday, March 7, 2009

alrite for today...
went to help out wei fang to do some stuff for the BGM (for those who dont noe.... its called Big Girls Ministry)
den kinda followed her around everywhere!! haha!!
so now quite tired los...
did the stuff for BGM for like 5-6 hrs???
haha
do until my eyes now like closing half liao...
grrrr....

well... after doing it until like hmmmm... 6???
we left to go for mar's cg at andy's house...
suppose to reach there at 7.30 in the end nearly 8 den reach...
haiz..
dont know how to walk to his house from the mrt station mah...
haha...
well then after the cg we made our way to Kovan's Hong Kong Cafe...
met up with Xiu Zhen and Ivan for some fellowship and to eat...
didn't really get to eat for dinner los haha!!
so ate Papaya soup noodles...
quite nice but also quite ex...
is like 9+ for a bowl of noodles that taste like instant noodles... haha
well now i'm home blogging...
and about to fall aslp rite in front of the com...

well tml will be serving for communion and then will finally be able to join cg for fellowship...
miss them to bits los!! waaaaaaa!!!
well have a nice rest everyone!!
nite nite!!!

*to be like the one you admire... you gotta first build a relationship*

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Thursday, March 5, 2009

i just found out that for the pass few days i've been very poeting...
haha!!
dont really know why...
haha..
do tell me wad u think about my poet k??
haha!!

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 9:18 PM

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~ITS NOT JUST~
its not just bout the time spent but how it is spent...
its not just bout the seasons we are together but the reason we are together...
its not just bout wer we are but who we are with...
its not just bout how we are spending the time but with who...
its not just bout the things we are doing but is with who we are doing it with...

~TIME~
time comes and goes likes season... quiet & fast...
time comes and goes like the wind... soft & lonely...
time comes and goes like the waves of the seas... strong & with presence...
time comes and goes like the leaves falling down from trees... lonely & silent...
time comes and goes like the snow that falls... slowly & cold...
time comes and goes like the tears that falls... warm & lonely...

*its not about the time being spent but the real reason who you are really with*

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What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Death
Looked down on
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

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Wednesday, March 4, 2009

~I GUESS~
i guess u can say its not yet time.
but u nvr gave me the time.
i guess u can say i've not been there.
but u nvr saw me rite behind
i guess u can say there it was.
but u nvr believed in it.
i guess u can say i wasn't there.
but have u ever thought wer i was.
i guess u can say y i did not care.
but have u ever cared for me.
i guess u can say how much i dont mind.
but do u noe how much i mind.

~I JUST WANNA SAY~
i just wanna say that i am willing to give u all the time of the day.
but u say u dont have the time.
i just wanna say i will always be there for you.
but u say u cant feel my presence.
i just wanna say u were always there for me.
but u say i've nvr known anything about u.
i just wanna say i've always been thinking bout u.
but u say dat u've been busy and didn't tink about me.
i just wanna say that i've really cared for you.
but u say i left you in the dark.
i just wanna say how much i wish i was there for you.
but u say to leave you alone.

~THE WISHES I HAVE~
nevertheless I will still love you.
nevertheless I will still care for you.
nevertheless I will still be there for you.
nevertheless I will still be here waiting for you to come back to Me.
nevertheless I will never turn away from you but will always be there.
nevertheless I will never be distant from you, but will always be near where you are.

i will always wish for You to love me.
i will always wish for You to care for me.
i will always wish for You to be wating for you.
i will always wish that i will go back to You.
i will always wish to turn back to You.
i will always wish never to be distant from but will always be just near You.

loving Him should never be a chore but be a delight cause He has always been there for you and had never thought of leaving you. He will always be waiting, waiting for you to come back to Him

the musical notes which can never be erased...; 11:19 AM

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Tuesday, March 3, 2009

sorry for not posting yesterday cause i reach home too late.
yesterday went for a "farewell" party for Jian Quan, Wilber and Stanley.
haha..
they will be going for NS so we went to Timber again at Doby there to have the "party".
went there and eat alot alot.
here's the list:
1. 4 Pizza's
2. 3 Baskets of Timber chicken wing
3. 1 Plate of Buffalo chicken wing
4. 1 Plate Cajun chicken
5. 1 Plate Fish & Chips
6. 2 Plates Calamari
7. 1 Plate German Sausage
8. 2 Plates Pasta
9. Drinks (at least 2 cups each per person)
Total: $416.60
if u calculate is really alot alot los...
we only had like 9 people with us.
like got me and lady boss are girls las...
how to eat so much los haha!!
well but quite fun there las...
after that want to go play arcade then we walk after lady boss and boss fetch us to the main road los.
but after that suddenly samuel ask me where my phone was...
then what i found out was that i left my phone on my lady boss car...
so i was without phone for around 13-14 hrs...
haiz...
hands itchy lea... haha
anyway today quite okay not as tired..
then today no need to work but went to clarke quay there to take my phone...
FINALLY I GOT MY PHONE!!!
YEAH!!!
thank God!!! :D:D

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Sunday, March 1, 2009

haha...
i've really noticed that my blog is really very very quiet...
i guess cause i never update the blog for a very very very long time so haha...
sorry everyone!! >.<
well to set matters right...
i guess i'll be trying my very best to keep my blog alive again...
even for a very short note...
so i'll try and keep everything posted yeah???

well currently now i'm getting ready for my exams which are coming up on the 9th to the 11th...
really hope i will do well to pull up my grades...
but after the exams will be holidays for me till April...
and i guess my holidays will be filled with Church, CG, work and most of all family!!! :D:D
just hope that really everything will go well and God will bless me with good results as i study...
do pray for me too!!! :D:D

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